da-ni-ca

Suffocated.

2012-01-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

I'm at this point of my life whereby everything seems to fall apart.
I've been given much and expected to return much...
I can't seem to manage my time well enough nor do i feel able to juggle with so many commitments.
I'm really really tired and i want a break.
but this is not the time...
I'm probably gonna have to slog till the end of the year.
but i'm really tired and i dunno if i can last till then.
i'm so confused, aiming for diff goals, trying to get things right.
and i feel so breathless, so suffocated with all these work and commitments i jud dun feel like doing anything.
and the worse part is, i dun have the rights to even complain.
and i'm too afraid to share. too afraid that i might have to give up something.

and it doesn't help when i have so many opportunities but yet i didn't do anything well...
it jus discourages me and makes me feel so incompetent.

Just reminiscing

2011-10-31T01:48:00.000+08:00

Reminiscing

Sitting there thinking what went wrong

Couldn’t figure if the fault was mine or yours

Well, history repeats itself

So I guess the problem must lie in myself

Didn’t think it mattered anymore,

But I was wrong.

It matters for it leaves me hanging

With a question in my heart unanswered

I don’t talk about it.

I don’t talk about us.

And I don’t know how to go about saying it as well.

The memories

They aren’t sweet but neither are they bitter.

And all I know is they lie in this part of my heart

That I left untouched

Looking at the pictures in my hand

I feel these mixed feelings that are so messed up

No word can describe

Like I was trying so hard; desperate

To fit in and be part of everybody

Only to end up pleasing nobody.

And all my smiles in those pictures are nothing but a façade.

The mask that hid all my insecurities and the tears that wet my pillow

Night after night

Perhaps my desperation for attention and acceptance was too loud

But I remember wishing only for a smile or a “hi”

But all I ever got was a shrug or plain silence

I can totally picture you say “oh, She wasn’t really part of us”

And I can do nothing but know that deep within that is true.

I remember on a bus ride home

The thought of you let my tears rolled uncontrollably down my cheeks

You ought to know that I treasure you more than any guy; any relationship.

Yet my cry for acceptance was left ignored.

Perhaps you don’t remember or maybe I’m just significant in your life

But what we went through sticks with me even till now.

It made me lose confidence and trust in myself, in people around me.

I learned that I should stop pleasing people, I learned that I shouldn’t be too hard on others.

I learned that I should remain silent most of the time, I learned to depend on myself.

I learned not to lean on others, I learned that I shouldn’t be too trusting

I learned not to be too whiny or troublesome

Most of all, I learned that I am quite a messed up person

And I don’t deserve to be loved.

The dilemma...

2011-08-29T20:03:00.000+08:00

ok, whatever written here is solely my opinion...
so if I happen to offend anyone, I apologise. But its definitely unintentional.
Just a little warning, if you are highly sensitive about religious issues, I suggest you do not read this post.

Just a little background info..
I kinda grew up in a Buddhist/ Taoist family and I've been in countless prayers or rituals.
I don't exactly consider my family pious but they are firm about offerings and practices on certain important occasions.
I pray and "follow tradition and practices" because I was taught and told to so since i was little.
Nothing much to do with believing, really.
Ironically, I end up attending a missionary secondary school.
That's when I start to know more about the bible and stuff..
So I do know a fair bit about both religions and after a lot of thinking I told myself one day that when I turn 21, I'm going to break free and be a free thinker.
Free from any kind of religion or faith.
And I do still think this way.

Recently, a friend of mine took me to service.
It was kinda like an impromptu thing... not planned or anything.
I made new friends there and got to know my friend better as well.
Its a bit like a social thing.
And before i know it, this week is going to be my 4th time there and 3rd time in service.
(I missed the 2nd service)
Last week was special because there was a performance so I was there for that.

Then it struck me. A question I couldn't answer.
I have no idea why I kept going week after week.
I just like hanging out with them.. I dunno why.
The truth is, I don't even know them well enough...
It jus occurred to me that perhaps I shldn't keep going...
I mean, it doesn't feel right to go to church week after week despite knowing that I wouldn't convert.
There's this like "then what are you doing here?" kinda feeling..
Its not like I'm going to church to see if this time I'm ready to accept God into my life
that would have been better, really.
But it jus feels so wrong to go there, KNOWING that I'm not gonna convert.
And I just feel so bad each time they ask newcomers to accept Christ at the end of each service..
Because I know that despite my attendance, I wasn't gonna raise my hand.
Its alright if it was my first time. I didn't feel bad then.
But after that, the second then the third, man the feeling is horrible.
It is really easy to jus wanna say "Yes" but when I think of the consequences, I have all the reasons in this world to hold back.

I dunno if I shld go this week..
I wanna hang out with those peeps but when I think of the little session at the end of service, I think twice.
To add on to my dilemma, one of my friends is singing during worship this week and have asked me to go and show some support. Trust me, I really wanna show some support.
So do I go or not?
I feel really bad, but at the same time...
I dunno.. this is really more than choosing the colour for your nails...

Just saying...

2011-06-13T03:05:00.000+08:00

Is it me or do one gets increasingly sensitive as one grows older?
I rmb having a heart of stone when i was younger..
nth seemed to move me...
then as i got older, i started to cry more.. and feel more..
there were lotsa stuff that i could keep within me and suppress it..
i was kinda proud of that...
but now it seems kinda hard for me..
is my willpower failing me? i dunno...
i feel so ironic..
i know i can't have it but i can't stop thinking abt it...
i know i wanna be strong and steady but the truth is, i'm in fact more emotional and sensitive than i think i am..
more than what ppl think..
i have this default 'fierce' aura but i'm actually not that hard to talk to..
i may seem ok with alot of things abt myself but in fact i have alot of insecurities...
scared..alot of times..

i wanna stay true to myself and true and sincere towards everyone...
yet there are things that i dun wanna let out and there's always this wall around me, acting as my shield..

why think and feel so much when there are alr so many things to do right?
the problem with me is, i can't do things 100% right if i'm emotionally disabled..
and it sucks.

Just a short one

2011-06-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

UK trip was awesome..
learnt a lot really.. and met some awesome ppl as well..
i'm really glad that our fellow classmates are now closer and more bonded
and meeting ppl frm other classes was really cool too:)

now i have to study for mid-years.. dun have much time left but i'll have to try..
feeling kinda tired though..

Irony..

I know I can't have it...but sth in me craves for it

for what reason I dunno...

I just can't seem to stop thinking abt it...

For AHSCHOIR... my family~

2011-04-14T20:01:00.019+08:00

SYF 2011 AHSCHOIR : Gold without the honours

Thats right.. we didn't manage to get a GwH this year
and I know all the sadness and disappointments are inevitable..
almost everyone cried their eyes out and those that didn't couldn't bring themselves to..
I understand how they feel. I've been there. And if I were them, I'd probably cry even more..
I'll be lying if I say I'm not sad or disappointed...
But the thing is, I'm not disappointed with them... I just feel that they deserve more than what they got.
In fact, I'm proud of them and I'm sure all the seniors are..
Because we know that they've tried their best and we believe in their capabilities..

Despite all the negative and gloomy stuff, the most important thing is for the choir to see that this award isn't everything and there are things greater and better than that..
Perhaps this little setback is necessary for the choir to grow and see that awards aren't everything...
Just look at all the facebook comments and posts before and after SYF...
Its just really heartening and it really shows that we're truly a family..
And I'm so proud of those wonderful juniors for they didn't forget to thank their leaders and teachers for their hard work despite all the disappointments they are feeling...

So choir, pick yourselves up and look forward to your next goal..

For some of you, maybe the disappointment will linger in you for awhile..

But you have to move on and know that

You're worth much more than a G or GwH or just any title people put on you...

Because AHSCHOIR is THE choir and AHSCHOIR is family~

Trust me. Go around and ask the alumni and you'll know that there's nowhere else like AHSCHOIR..

I believe in you guys, I have faith in all of you and I know you'll soon move on to greater things..

I love AHSCHOIR and I'm proud to be an AHSCHORISTER (Its a lifetime membership)...

Like I said, the greatest miracle that ever happened in my life is that I'm part of AHSCHOIR...

And I'm sure I'm not the only one on this...

A certain R**** organisation at R C* mall...

2011-01-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

Started working for a certain "R" organisation some time ago...
conclusion: they're quite screwed up.. all the glam the public sees is just a cover..

was contacted on tuesday night 10pm and asked to start work 11am on wednesday...
yep.. so it was kinda last min.. nonetheless, I was kinda excited..
afterall, its my first job right? well, until I arrived at the security check point..
It killed half my mood... I wasn't briefed on what to do or where to go..
So I felt kinda retarded trying to find my way to START WORK..
Knew nothing abt clocking in and out, didn't even know what a punch card was, much less operate the machine.
Had no idea how to register or get a promoter badge, what to bring, what not to bring etc..
basically I was like a sotong.. the best part is, EVERYBODY knew (they said it in my face) that I was new.
BUT NOBODY bothered to help or at least give some guidance...
the security guard knew I was new, but gave me attitude and practically screamed at me cuz he was irritated that I didn't know anything and was taking too long to register... (like I'm suppose to know!)
Spent at least 20 mins at the check point and during that period of time, there were at least 20 ppl entering and leaving the check point..
NONE of them bothered to help... NOT even the MANAGER....
when I got screamed at by the security guard, those ppl either #1 watch the show..
or #2 ignore and get on with their stuff...
which is more irritating? I have no idea.. it just kinda says alot abt the environment there right?

Unlike usual companies that have a set of rules, they don't...
What are the rules and regulations? the dos and don'ts?
Well, let's just say that you'll have to trial and error and when you get scolded, you'll naturally know what's disallowed... I mean, what sort of organisation don't have a list of rules and regulations?
and they just tell you off as if you're SUPPOSED to know what you did was against the "rules"?
What? they have some sort of unwritten rules or sth?
Just kinda shows that they're kinda screwed up right?

And you have some "senior" bitcing abt you like 3m away frm you and they think you can't hear them..
I mean like, ok, so we're all humans and we all bitch abt stuff...
but to bitch abt somebody so badly and turn arnd and be all nice and friendly when you just bitch abt her just 30 sec ago is just plain disgusting...

how did I survive? ACT NAIVE.
I kinda made them think that I'm nice to bully and blur like sotong...
you know, just act innocent...
sometimes, you just can't show that you're too smart...

this is just part 1... there's another branch I worked at... another security guard story..

I'm back!!! finally revived!!!

2011-01-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

Right... finally back after a long long time..
Thought I'd never revive this dead blog..haha.
anyway, I'm posting cuz i realise that it's been quite a while since I've expressed myself on my blog..

So.. I've started working part-time as a promoter and waitress...
Well, I must say that these a good experiences for me, so I get a taste of what its like out there..
Of course, I've met really nice ppl , made friends and stuff..
But you know, bad experiences stay and leave deeper impressions..
haha..
Kinda realised that we're pretty much protected in sch...
If you're one of those who thinks that sch sucks and that its annoying following rules..
Well, you've got to see what's really out there..
Used to complain alot abt sch rules and stuff...until I started working..
honestly...I've come to realise that no matter how much I've complained abt sch...
somehow sch system and management are still one of the best..
At the very least, they're made to protect and improve students' welfare..
In sch, we're probably gems...almost everything is meant for us..
Out there.. they generally don't give a damn abt you...
You're paid to work and so you do anything they ask of you..
They need manpower, you need money, you work, they get their job done, you get the money, the end.
And I realised that security guards are generally SUPER ANNOYING...
and have MAJOR ATTITUDE PROBLEM.... generally...
Out of abt 5, maybe at least 3 are difficult to deal with..
seriously...
and because you see them at the start and end of the day, they spoil your mood early in the morning
and piss you off right before you knock off...as if you're not drained enough after working the whole day..
shall share my experiences in the next or next few posts..since this one is getting abit too long...

Let's sum up the whole of AUGUST!

2010-09-01T12:37:00.000+08:00

Before I sum up August..It's alr the first day of September.. how time flies.
to all teachers in the world..
who have dedicated their time and effort in nurturing us and helping us to grow...
who have immense passion for teaching and endless patience with us...
thank you so much for all that you've done for us.
I, personally, am grateful for all that.
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!

now...

21 AUGUST 2010

Happy belated 24th Birthday, KIBUM oppa!!!!
미안해, 오빠...I have exams so its belated..
빨리 return to Super Junior 바라건대
오빠 보고싶어요~
but I also hope you're happy at wherever you're at..
오빠,파이팅!!!!

24 AUGUST 2010

Happy belated 27th Birthday, YESUNG oppa!!!
미안해, 오빠 because of exams its belated...
오빠, I really love your voice... love to hear you sing!!!
looking forward to hear you sing in SS3!!!
오빠, 파이팅!!!
사랑합니다<3

National Day!!!

2010-08-09T22:59:00.001+08:00

Happy 45th Birthday SINGAPORE!!!!!!!

45 is pretty young for a country huh?
well, i guess 2010 is a big year for Singapore..
the IR, casino, Marina Bay Sands and YOG..
I hope our little red dot will continue to prosper and may we live in peace and harmony forever!!!

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to Singapore,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

On another note, I foresee that I'll be super busy in the weeks to come..(thanks to prelims)
I'd like to take this opportunity to wish Singapore all the best for the coming YOG:):)
I hope everything goes well and that it'll be a huge success!!!
From the bottom of my heart, I'm really proud of Singapore:):)
SG!!! Let's GO GO GO!!!

time flies..how i wish it'll slow down for awhile...

2010-07-19T18:25:00.000+08:00

Oh my.. one week is gone just like that..
and it's the beginning of another..
time is really running out..
I used to wish time will past faster and before I know it, it'll be the weekends..
but i guess things are different now.
I really do wish for the weekends but every Sunday is a reminder of another week being gone and the 'O's are drawing near..
man.. pretty stressed out now though I don't think I'm showing it..

ppl think I'm doing well.. they expect alot from me..
thinking that I have no probs doing well...
but in fact, I'm merely struggling at the surface of the water..
I'm really scared...

2AM!!!! WELCOME TO SINGAPORE!!!!

2010-07-10T01:00:00.000+08:00

Yep yep.. the day has come!!!
2AM arrived in Singapore a few hours ago:)
oh my, just the thought of that excites me:)
ok.. so I don't have the tickets..
but I'm still very happy that they're here!!!

2AM 오빠!!!!

I hope you guys like it here:)

you guys have to tour around this warm island of ours and try our famous local delicacies kaes?

Hope you guys will enjoy this short trip and come back again!!! ... perhaps for a concert?

haha... fans like me will be showing lotsa love<3!!! lol.

오빠, 사랑합니다!!!

2AM, 파이팅!!!!

Happy Birthday Heechul!!!!

2010-07-10T00:48:00.001+08:00

희철오빠, 생일 축가해요!!!
슈퍼주니어 영원히 신들레라 <3
오빠, you seem tired recently... sleep well yea?
우유빛깔 김희철~ 사랑해요 김희철!!!!

사랑해요~

Letting Go...

2010-07-01T22:30:00.002+08:00

People say that "saying goodbye is really hard and painful".
Well, I guess it is.
After saying goodbye, I still had the urge to go back again...
Back to the status quo...
Back to where things were where they were...
but things change and I guess I'm just one who reacts very badly to changes.
Once in a while I've got this tinge of sadness when I think about those memories...
It's really hard to let go..

However, now that I finally have..
Finally learned to move on and do what I'm suppose to do...
I feel like I no longer wanna return...
or maybe I do... but just not as badly as I wanted before.

Perhaps I no longer feel like I belong there.

Perhaps I do but I just don't feel welcomed.

Or maybe I'm afraid of another goodbye...

afraid that once I go back I'd be reluctant to leave again.

Perhaps its these thoughts that now I feel kinda "drifted"

I feel like "I've let go and this is it...don't think about it anymore"...

I'm afraid..

that what I used to love will drift away from me...

that what I used to think was so important to me was just an illusion

or perhaps they're just not as great as I thought they were.

Perhaps I mistook a piece of floating ice for an iceberg...

thinking that there was something more to it than meets the eye.

I'm sorry I don't mean to doubt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEETEUK!!!

2010-07-01T19:30:00.003+08:00

Teukkie 오빠...

생일축가힙니다!!!

영원히 슈퍼주니어 리다!!

새상의 best leader!!!

오빠, 파이팅!!!

사랑합니다<3

KOREA!! Its alright:):)

2010-06-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

yep.. World Cup 2010.
S.Korea got into TOP 16!!!!
everybody, 박수! 박수! 박수!
seriously, they are COOL!!!

they did korea proud, they did ASIA proud:):)

so the first top 16 match just ended like 5 mins ago?
even though they didn't win, I think they really put up a great fight!
and I'm sure ppl arnd the world / (asia) are proud of them..
i know I am :) haha...

괜찮아... this year is a stepping stone for s.korea.

they'll probably play for quater finals in 2014!!
looking forward!!!

대.한.민.국!!! clap. clap. clap. clap. clap.

FIGHTING!!!!

Just a short one..

2010-06-23T00:49:00.000+08:00

Right.. decided to post sth short before I turn in for the night..
yep.. Its the World Cup season now..
and S.Korea is up against Nigeria in abt 2 hrs!!!
a pity I can't watch the match cuz there's school tomorrow..
but i support S.Korea anyway:):)
I really hope they'll win and get into top 16!!
the pride of Asia!!
haha... 대한민국!! FIGHTING!!!!

P.S.( Super Junior is confirm coming to Singapore for SS3!!!*excited* I hope they come aft 'o'levels though..)
Thats all for now..
nights:):)

Sorry I'm late..

2010-06-23T00:37:00.001+08:00

HEY HEY!!!
Oh my.. didn't post for more than a month. haha..
well, let me wish ppl their belated birthdays first..
I'm so sry..

4 June 2010

Happy 25th Birthday, Micky 유천 오빠!!!
미안해.. Its belated..
I hope you'll continue and strive as an artiste no matter what:)

오빠, 파이팅!!! 사랑해<3

7 June 2010

Happy 2nd Anniversary~ Super Junior HAPPY!!!
Time flies.. Its alr the second year.
For those catchy and cute tunes and for bringing joy to the listeners, 코마워:)
Hope you guys can come up with a new album in future

오빠, 사랑함니다<3

21 June 2010

생일축가함니다, 려욱 오빠!!!
continue to touch the world with your melodious voice:)
오빠 퀴어워:):)

사랑해<3

I'm back.. after MYE:)

2010-05-14T16:58:00.000+08:00

heyhey:)
MYE is FINALLY OVER!!!!
well, though its only a short break before i have to start my engine again..
its better than nth.. at least my braincells have time to multiply and replace those massacred in MYE..
haha.. finally get to use com and watch tv:) not gonna think abt how badly i'm gonna flunk yet..lol

well, Suju just released their 4th album 2 days ago!!!!
finally watched the MV..
its kinda cool...
completely diff concept from the previous albums...
its like black with emo make-up, very catchy tune...
and suju suddenly have abs..lol
they're like transformed into muscular cool guys...
haha.. kinda similiar to 2pm's style...
but i don't quite like de fact that they auto-tuned the voices..
to the extent that only a few members voices were recognisable..
and they sound robotic in general...
oh well, i love them anyway:)
but the sad thing is, there're only 10 members in this album...
cries...

wait for KiBum, support KangIn, stand by HanKyung....

Super Junior FIGHTING!!!!!

Oh my.. cool.

2010-04-24T18:55:00.000+08:00

OMG.. I think i must be lagging for like centuries?
I was searching for 시원's new drama series.. (he's the leadXD)
apparently it's called "Oh! My Lady"..
and guess what? the female lead is 박채림from "Dalja's Spring"!!!
She's like 31 (33 in korean years) and 시원is 23 (25 in korean years)?!
and i just realised that 이민키from "Dalja's Spring" acted in "Rainbow Romance"
along with 희철 and 키범!!! and he sings!! he released an EP last year...
my goodness.. was I hiding in a dinosaur egg or sth?
lol..

darn.. paper 1 on monday..
looking forward to watching Monga though...
just to clarify.. i'm not interested just cuz Ethan and Mark or any other "hot" guys are acting..
I'm psychic over it cuz it's COOL and not "lacy and dainty"..
i watched the behind the scenes and i think it's super cool..
partly becuz there were alot of emotions behind the scenes... if you get what i mean..
haha...

step down..

2010-04-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

ok. firstly, today i had oral exams..
i thought the topic was quite cool (about food)
i felt like suddenly all my knowledge frm geography came flowing out..
but the teacher didn't seem to be interested..
it felt as though she alr gave me a score and is waiting for me to finish speaking..
but when i do, she asked another quetion..lol

secondly, i went to yijing's birthday party today..
it was really cool and i had a great time hanging out wiz my friends:)
yijing looked like a pretty pink princess with SUPER high heels..lol

last but not least, yesterday was officially choir handover..
which means my AHSCHOIR life ended yesterday..
my juniors told me the day before that i was gonna cry..
haha. but i assured them that i wldn't and i dun see any reason for me to cry..
so on fri, ppl tried ways and means to make me cry but i just didn't..
until we started singing..
i have no idea why..
we sounded horrible but tears filled my eyes...
especially UBI CARiTAS..
when the new comm was announced, i felt so happy for them
and i was reminded of the time when i first step up and was so happy i made it into comm.

so i was haing mixed feelings. i was happy for my juniors but yet sad to leave..
i managed to give mr toh and the teachers their letter.yay!
i guess it's late now and i'm lazy to continue typing...
so catch up next time yea?haha.

ITALY.. (Riva Del Garda+Venice+Milan) 26/3 - 3/4

2010-04-08T20:34:00.002+08:00

yep.. finally posting.. cuz i seriously was very busy and am still very busy...
busy catching up with the one week of lesson i missed of course..
anyway..

11 edizione
Concorso Corale Internazionale.
yep.. that was the main aim of the trip.
Competition was Riva but we also got the privilege to tour a little in Milan and Venice..

well, for the competition, we lost but we've also won..
we didn't win and we didn't really lose..
confusing? not really.
we got a Gold Diploma level 2.
if i'm not wrong, we got 22/30.
many of you would probably say that we won cuz of the gold..
but we lost to ourselves.
We weren't our best on stage..
if anyone heard us in our rehearsal room, they'll probably think that it was another choir on stage.
seriously. It was sub-standard.
which is why we were the only singaporean choir which didn't get into grand finals..

I don't know why but the moment i got off stage i just burst out crying...
i was already trying to hold it in on stage..
so i guess i just lost it when i went backstage..
sorry for causing the other members tears too...
Mr Toh had a talk with us when we returned to the hotel..
yes, it was emo talk and the whole choir cried..
Mr Toh cried..and the more he talked the more we cried..
the tears were never ending...
and we were all practically wailing...
especially the sec 4s. cuz it was our last performance with choir and everything..
but i guess we all learnt a lesson and it was an experience for us..
not gonna go into anymore emo, sad, depressing details..
cuz i've cried alot and i really don't wanna have the same feelings all over again..
decided to think positive and that's that.

so, abt all the tours and sight-seeing...
very interesting actually... learning abt their history and culture..
observing their daily life and stuff...
and definitely a different experience for me..
enjoying myself but at the same time trying to maintain discipline in choir..
haha...
at dubai airport, my favourite moment was when i was sipping my starbucks mocha..
haha...love it!!!!
anyway..
our first stop was MILAN...
yep. visited the Duomo..
one of the world's largest gothic cathedrals..
the structure itself is way cool and the inside...
you'll never see anything like that in singapore...really.
they have paintings and glass paintings that tells a story..
structures of saints...
luminous candles lit the sides of the cathedrals..
and despite having some light bulbs hanging from above, the cathedral is relatively dim..
i suppose it'll be really dark if not for the sunlight that shone through the glass windows..
displaying the beautiful glass paintings..
something you'll have to be there to feel and cannot be explained fully in words...
visited a castle as well..
Castello Sforzesco..
quite a huge place.. took some photos..
didn't really catch what the guide was saying(she has an Italian accent..duh.)
walked through the Glass-domed galleria..
VERY crowded..
there was this hole on the floor and it's believed that if you step on the hole with your heel and turn one round, you'll get good luck...
i think sherrie tried..haha.
spotted Mcdonald's, some cafe/ristorante,lotsa shops..
saw Prada, Gucci and Louis Vuitton...haha.
had a little free time so i went and looked around with the sec ones...
end up meeting the sec 3s as well..lol.
and yes, explored the toilet, which was rather interesting..
had dinner and was shocked that the starter was a plate of pasta..
and there was still main course and dessert..
lol.. tried dipping bread with vinegar and olive oil..(Italian delicacy)
i thought it was pretty good.. maybe cuz i have a thing for vinegar:)
checked in and zzzz...

had some prob with the time the next morning cuz of daylight saving-.-
so ended up rushing like mad..
we stopped at Verona for a while..
visited Giuliette home/castle or sth like that..
yes, Giuliette = Juliet(from romeo and juliet)
there were lotsa love notes and wishes pasted all over the wall..
and there was a statue of her-- the spotlight of the place..
i dunno why but everyone took photo with the statue with their hands on her boobs..
maybe it's suppose to bless you with a flourishing love life..
haha...
well, after Verona, we headed for Riva to prepare for competition..
stayed for abt 4 days there, roomed with sherrie and huikay..haha.
we had this rehearsal room underground which is very echo-y. yes. underground.i think it's cool.
quite fun... in between there were lotsa shopping in the town, GELATO, PANINI, PASTA, LASAGNE etc... all these were enjoyed in the town area in Riva..
oh, and lotsa supermarket shopping:) bought chocs, water(super cheap), cheese, granola bars(cheap also)...
most of our trip was in Riva so i'll just cut it short..
oh yes, and we met our seniors in MJ over there as well..
they were sooo good..haha..
i love them man.. i know they love ahschoir as well:)

after competition, we headed for VENICE..
took a ferry to St Marc's Square and toured for i dunno how long..
quite a few hours i suppose.. SUPER CROWDED...
followed a guide with an italian+japanese accent..
i'm not being mean but i seriously strained my ears to understand her..
and when i say strain, i mean really strain... until my ears ached...
so in the end i just gave up listening to her...
so if i was lucky i'll pick up a few key words that sounded clearer..
saw the gondole, did some shopping, visited the glass factory..
it was really cool..
this super muscular guy just made a glass vase right in front of our eyes in mins..
it was really cool.. the glass was molten and he just blew it through the pole and it swelled like a balloon, forming a vase shape..
super cool..
but the things there are super expensive..
well, that's cuz everything is handmade...
still, we can't really afford them...
after shopping we took a ferry back and had dinner...
dinner was... unusual..
don't realy wanna explain here...
don't think i should talk abt it on my blog.. i mean, it's kinda open right?..
so..yea. we went supermaket again and checked in to this very luxurious hotel...
i love the hotel...haha

had this rather sad feeling when i woke up cuz it was our last day...
dreading to return like mad...
but still, i'm back..-.-
i realised many things cannot be captured with cameras or explained in words..
you MUST be there to feel and understand...
if i have a chance, i'll definitely go again...

Just wanted to say that there were some really interesting events and incident during the trip..
but if i were to type it all out, i think i'll end up typing 2000 words essay..
so yea.. i cut everything short..
if you guys wanna see photos, go facebook..
everyone is posting there..including me..
too lazy to post again on my blog..
plus my post will be even longer-.-

right... for this trip to happen..
i wanna thank MR TOH..
for obvious reasons.. why would we even go if he doesn't?
thank him for everything, everything and everything.
Thank You, MR TOH:):)

and of course, not forgetting our teachers: MR TAN, MS FARAH and Mrs yeo...
Thank you for taking care of us and all...
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!

and thank you, fellow choir mates for helping each other when in need..
encouraging and taking care of each other...
thank you, those of you who were there for me, comforted me, gave me hugs, a pat on the shoulder etc... thank you very much.. (you guys know who you are..XD)
i hope everyone took home sth frm the trip..
be it good or bad, i hope choir will stay bonded forever..
let's not forget our choir mates who prayed for us day and night in singapore...
silently supporting us... thank you:):)

I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!!
I LOVE AHSCHOIR!!!!

SUPER JUNIOR- Mandarin debut anniversary!!!!

2010-04-08T19:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2nd ANNIVERSARY:
Super Junior M:):)

Wow.. Its already been 2 years since you guys debuted with SuperGirl.
How time flies..
I hope you guys will continue to succeed and release more albums..
It's amazing how you guys try so hard as a group to sing in a foreign tongue...
and I'm gonna support you guys all the way!!!
加油！超级超级的男孩。。。

어빠, 사랑해<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIWON!!!!!

2010-04-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

Happy 25th Birthday:)

생일축가 합니다, 시원어빠!!!!!
영원히 슈퍼주니어 프린스 챠밍:):)
어빠, 파이팅!!!!

사랑해<3

will post about Italy soon...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNHYUK!!!!!

2010-04-06T17:32:00.001+08:00

4 APRIL 2010

sorry.. just came back frm Italy so was jet-lagging plus tons of work awaiting me..
so it's belated. Shall talk abt Italy later.

생일축가 합니다, 은혁 어빠!!!!!!!
영원히 슈퍼주니어 제일 무희:)
이혁재, 사랑해<3

Dancing Machine, 파이팅!!!!

ITALY... HERE WE COME!!!!

2010-03-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

Just wanna post sth quickly before i leave..heh.
It's amazing how time flies...
I still can't believe that I'm flyinf off in a few hours time..
I dun have the excitement i usually have when i go overseas.
No. Not this time. Probably becuz of all the work waiting for me when i get back...
i dunno.. i feel kinda stressed and scared. weird huh?

I really hope that we can do even better for this competition.
It's tough but we'll try...
I'm really praying for that magic to happen...
i dunno what else to say..
somehow i feel that this trip and competition means alot to me..
i dunno how to explain this kind of feeling..
It's like super super important and when i say alot, i mean ALOT..
somehow, it's like 'o'levels...
and i admit that until now, i'm still afraid and nervous..
i hope i will get over it...

well, wish us luck!!!!
AHS CHOIR, LET'S GO!!!!!!!

UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE

2010-03-18T23:03:00.001+08:00

Hey there:)..
yep. it's been quite some time..
Ivy said that i shld change my blog to a birthday blog..
haha. cuz i always post abt ppl's birthday..
SO, i decided that i shld post abt other stuff as well..
hopefully.. i mean, i dun always have time to go online right?
haha...
right.. today is the opening of USS!!!!! CONGRATS!!!!
i feel so proud of Singapore:) and man am i proud that i'm a Singaporean:)
i think it's really cool that we have a theme park of our own..
and i'm sure it's gonna be a HUGE success!!!!!

NOW, to all those Singaporeans who have been complaining abt USS..
seriously, everything has it's flaws and so dun expect everything to be perfect.
if you ask me, i think USS has a lot of great things for you to be proud of..
so pls, stop complaining and picking on those small little imperfections and be proud and happy with what we have.
I mean, we're really lucky to have great leaders who are constantly pushing our country to greater heights. So stop crashing on the government over the tiniest details. Think abt it. USS is a sign that Singapore has gone a notch higher. Honestly, we're a VERY small country and with what we've achieved today, i think we ought to be thankful. Seriously, who wld've thought that this tiny dot of ours will have a resort so sophisticated and amazing to call our own? For a start, i feel that USS is doing great but even if there are any big problems, I believe that the organisers will continue to make improvement as it continues to progress. So pls. It's only the FIRST day. Give it a chance yea?
Seriously, if you're really so unhappy abt USS (abt the price, environment, rules, staff, service, size, people, organisers, food, merchandise, toilet, ceiling, colour, trees etc.) then simply DON'T GO... why make a BIG fuss over your LITTLE unsatisfaction?

well, these are just some of my opinions.
I just felt like sharing what i feel cuz i read some unpleasant and ridiculous comments online.
The strange thing is, they are all from Singaporeans.
I haven't read any complaints or whatsoever from foreigners abt USS..
anyway, i didn't mean to offend anyone.
Just wanted to share my views as a proud Singaporean:)

btw, i hope all of you enjoy ur hols:)
have been really busy this week.. and will continue to be even busier.
hahaXD

5 MARCH!!!!!

2010-03-06T00:12:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY MARTIN!!!!
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY ALCALVIE!!!!

yeahman... we all share the same birthday..
haha. what a special day:) lol.
honestly, i wasn't really looking forward to my birthday.
dunno why.. i guess i've been quite emo lately..
but well, i guess all the birthday wishes and presents cheered me up..

haha.. i already received sms before i went to bed..
and i found presents on my table when i stepped into the classroom..
I'm really really very very happy today!!!!!
i've got so many ppl wishing me happy birthday and giving me presents..
i honestly haven't felt so happy for quite a while.
so, THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!!!

Those of you who text me, or wish me happy birthday in school, or gave me presents, hugged me, sang me birthday song, wrote on my FACEBOOK wall, emailed me etc...
I'm really SUPER SUPER grateful and really thank you all so much!!!
all of you really made my day..
i truly enjoyed my special day...
no worries, i really love each and every gift i receive...

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!
LOVES<3

SUPER JUNIOR- Trot debut anniversary

2010-02-28T11:54:00.001+08:00

25 FEBRUARY 2010

HAPPY 3rd ANNIVVERSARY:
SUPER JUNIOR - Trot!!!!!

I hope you guys will have a new album:)
Its really cool to see you guys perform trot music..
continue spreading this traditional music to the younger generation..
i'm sure they'll be as popular as you guys are:)
SUPER JUNIOR- T, 파이팅!!!!!

actually, i'm 3 days late..
sry.. but really couldn't help it.
my internet connection wasn't working..
but its fine now. haha.
better late than never right?
haha...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

2010-02-18T17:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM:):):):)
love ya<3

생일 축 가합니다, MAX 최강.창민 오빠<3
영원히 동방신기 귀여운 막내, 최강.창민 ...
stay charming forever..
사랑해<3

sorry.. the new year was really busy so i didn't have time to post..
haha...
well, i've got quite a number of red packets:)lol.
watched 2 movies with my family..
大兵小将 and 72 房客
yep.. both are comedies:)
haha.. laughed quite alot:)
wld have enjoyed the 72 tenants more if its in cantonese though..
haha.. i like to watch shows in their original language:)

14 FEBRUARY 2010

sorry i know its late but i'll still post..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!
HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!!!

this is cool.. i mean like new year with valentines'?
how often do we get that?..lol
oh, and..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LING XIN!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRICIA!!!!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY W595:)

haha.. got my phone a new batt and a 4GB memory card:) lol.
ok.. thats all for now..XD

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!

2010-02-13T18:39:00.001+08:00

HELLOXD
its already the second month of the year..
wow..haha

can't say i'm super excited abt the new year..
lets just say that its a good break for me to gather with my family and some relatives..
dunno if its just me but the festive mood of lunar new year fades every year..
no idea when it started fading..
i rmb being all "high" and excited abt de new year as a little girl..
man, i was really happy..lol.
but now, there's really no excitement..
well, just a subtle " ok, its the new year.." kinda feeling..
haha.

but anyway, i hope everyone will enjoy their new year and get lotsa red packets:)
though unlucky ppl like me get HOMEWORK as red packets for the new year..
i'm sure its gonna be cool:)
once again, wishing everyone a very
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday!!!

2010-02-09T16:54:00.000+08:00

韩庚，生日快乐:):):):)
希望你能开开心心地度过这一年。
很期待看见你和其他成员再站在舞台上散出你们的魅力。
妖精们会永远守护着你们，支持你们...
我们会在舞台下给你们打气加油!!!!!
韩庚오빠, 파이팅!!!!

ok.. so i've been really busy and i forgot that u-know's b'dae was 3 days ago..

so erm.. happy belated:) sorry oppa...

6 FEBRUARY 2010

U-Know 윤호 오빠, 생일 축가합니다!!!!

continue to work hard and wow the world with your swanky dance moves:)

lead DBSK well!!!!

영원히 동방신기 멋진 지도자, U-Know 윤호!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYUHYUN:)

2010-02-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

규현 오빠, 생일 축하합니다 !!!!!!!
continue to bring love and joy to everyone with your magnificent voice:)
영원히 SUPER JUNIOR 귀여운 막내, 초규현<3
사랑해요<3

오빠, FIGHTING!!!!!!

환영!!!! 환영!!!!

2010-01-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

Welcome!!! Welcome!!!
a very BIG welcome to FTIsland and SHINEE:)
its definitely not the first time for FTIsland... but i'm glad they came back.
shows that they like Singapore:) YAY!!! haha..
i guess for SHINEE, its their first
and i heard from a friend's friend that the airport just now was sooo crowded..
i hope they'll like Singapore as wellXD
and then they will come back more often..
hopefully i can see them 'live'with my own eyes one day...

more artistes are coming to Singapore..
which is a good thing, obviously cuz Singapore is gaining recognition:)
cheers!!!

haha... still faithfully waiting for Super Junior to come:)
Singapore ELFs are waiting and keeping faith:)

btw, after orientation today, my voice somehow got infected and i got the sexy voice now..
lol. hope it gets better 2morow:)
Group 2 penguins have 13 members!!! YAY!!!
I hope choir had fun today:)

SMY challenge.. hilarious.

2010-01-27T16:26:00.000+08:00

haha.. i kept my promise:)
i'm not posting abt ppl's birthday today..lol
anyway, just felt like sharing the super hilarious SMY challenge today.
haha.. who'd have thought that our class wld come in first? lol.
we were still aiming for the "best L1R5" if you get what i mean..
haha.. anyways, it was fun whether we won or not..
we were screaming and laughing our way throught the challenge...haha

i wld also like to SUPER THANK SuJu and SJforum..
cuz one of the qns was abt an organization that helps children and i knew that it was UNICEF..
becuz SUPER JUNIOR supports UNICEF and i rmb reading abt it on the forum:)
haha.. SUPER JUNIOR ROCKS!!!!!! got the unicef qn correct:) YAY!!!

haha..thats all for now:)

BIRTHDAYS...:)

2010-01-26T21:30:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 재중!!!!
당신에게 행복을 영원히 바라십시오!!!

생일 축하합니다 <3

나의 영웅....

anyway, i realised that my past few posts have been abt birthdays..haha
i think thats cuz i don't really have time to post
and i really try my best to at least wish ppl happy birthday..lol
btw, i missed out some ppl's birthdays.. so sry cuz the week has been pretty busy..
but here they are:

18 Jan- Happy Birthday IVY
19 Jan- Happy Birthday KAH CHON
21 Jan- Happy Birthday LYNDSEY

right.. thats all for now..
hopefully i can post abt something else instead of just birthdays next time..
hahaXD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KANG-IN!!!!!!!

2010-01-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

오빠, 행복한 27 번째 생일!!!!
I hope to see you on screen soon:) we'll be waiting for you..
우리는 영원히 당신을 사랑한다<3
생일 축하합니다!!!!
김영운 오빠, 파이띵!!!!

저는 믿습니다....

환영2010년!!!!!!

2010-01-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! to the whole wide world.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 성민 오빠!!!!! (Sungmin oppa)

haha.. its finally 2010.
i hope all of us have had a memorable 2009...
let us welcome 2010 with greater hopes and expectations.
may we all have a memorable and fruitful year ahead:)
Stay strong & healthy!!!

To 성민 오빠....
생일 축하합니다 !!!!!!
stay healthy and have a great year ahead.
wish you success in everything you do:)
FIGHTING!!!!

Last day of 2009

2009-12-31T15:56:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps..
yes. the year is over in a flash.
well, time really flies.. to think that i was still dreading my sec 3 life last year..
now i'm really dreading sec 4..haha.
2009 has been quite stressful year.. with all the workload.
but there were also really cool and fun memories..
like how i fall in love with SUPER JUNIOR & KPOP..
hahaXD
well, lets complete whatever unfinish task there is left.
fulfill any unfulfilled wishes we have and embrace the new year with a warm heart.
and soon, 2009 will be a part of our memories:)

안녕 2009년....

환영 2010 년 !!!!

After Christmas...bored.

2009-12-26T14:28:00.002+08:00

The Season of Joy and Giving is over..
i feel so empty again...
there is nth to look forward to..
i'm definitely dreading sec 4.. can't even bare to think abt it..

btw, i finished watching 떼루아...
i want 우주 and 조이 to be together..haha
the disc cover cheated me!!!
they put 우주 and 조이 together
and 때민 and 지순 together on the disc cover..
then i was watching the show happily waiting for 우주 and 조이 to be together..
but in the end, its 우주 and 때민...
WHY???!!!!!! ahhh...
lol.. i sound like a lunatic here...haha.

i hope everything goes well for Hankyung and Super Junior...
FIGHTING!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

2009-12-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

To Every Single One Living In This World:

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!

hohoho....

Christmas Eve tomorrow:)

2009-12-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hey there!!!
just finished uploading photos on facebook. phew.
tagging ppl can be pretty tough when you have lotsa photos...
and many ppl squeezed in one.haha.

so.. its CHRISTMAS EVE tomorrow!!! got family christmas dinner and i'm gonna get presents:)
haha.. kinda looking forward to it:)
well, this year instead of the usual excitement for christmas to arrive, i feel different from previous years..
i can feel the "season of giving" more than anything else. dunno why.. but its quite a nice feeling:)
maybe becuz i've been buying presents for ppl.. haha.

well.. recently took alot of pictures. thats cuz i've got quite a few outings..lol.
hmm.. still in love with Super Junior, still watching 때루아 (its pretty cool)..

just in case i don't have enough time to post again,
i wish every single one in the world
A MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

my blood is Sapphire Blue....

Sudden Enlightenment..

2009-12-14T13:38:00.001+08:00

well, i dunno how to go abt explaining this..
its gonna be an old grandmother story so yep..

i was just chatting wiz my aunt yesterday..
and i told her some of my thoughts like how the world gets uglier everyday
and how i realise that it is more difficult to be happy as i grow older.
and then she said sth which i think really made sense.

she said, "its true the world gets uglier and we cannot change that. but we get to choose to add on to the uglinesss or try to beautify it."

and i thought, "wow"... why didn't i think of that? she was trying to tell me that i shld appreciate everything around me. every little thing cuz its being appreciative of the tiniest thing that makes you a happier person.

and thats what i've been trying to change for the past few months. i saw how ppl can be so appreciative and thankful for everything and it really made their lives more meaningful. i wanna be like that as well.

others tell me that i'm just being naive, trying to be positive. but to me, i'm just seeing things differently. i'm obviously aware of all the unhappiness around but by being thankful and putting a smile on my face, its an effort in "beautifying" my world.
isn't it?
well, i'm gonna try being a thankful and appreciative person. its gonna take time but i'm gonna try my best:) and i really like that phrase my aunt told me. thank you:)

Super Junior @ 24th GDA- sorry sorry answer

2009-12-12T13:57:00.000+08:00

haha.. I'm updating:)

WHO SAYS THAT SUJU CAN'T SING?
WATCH THIS!!!! ITS LIVE!!!

Sorry Sorry Answer @ Golden Disk Award

i just wanna prove that SuJu CAN sing
cuz ppl tell me that they can't cuz they're just a boy group..
and since when boy groups can't sing? lol.
they won 3 awards at the 24th GDA including DAESANG award:)
haha.. i'm so happy for them:)

SUJU FIGHTING!!!!

Super Junior!!!!!

2009-11-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

Didn't i say i'll update soon? lol.
anyway, just felt like posting some SuJu pictures..haha

cool right? haha.. dun have a favourite member though.. i just LOVE THEM ALL!!!!! haha.

LONG TIME NO SEE!!!! haha

2009-11-30T18:44:00.003+08:00

OMG... haha my blog is reviving aft like what? more than 2 mths?
lol... guess i got too caught up wiz watching youtube videos..
mostly Super Junior videos i suppose..
yes.. i'm now SUPER IN LOVE with SUPER JUNIOR..
i can't believe it myself.. i've never been interested in Kpop really..
until i came across SuJu a few weeks ago..lol
well, i still like Jonas.. i just have another idol thats all..
and i thinki i'm really crazy..lol
anyway, i'm updating cuz some juniors reminded me that i actually have a blog..
haha. a dead one. so penguin and gang, i've updated my blog:) lol

ok.. thats all for now. i hope that more SuJu videos will have eng subs..
cuz i can't understand korean..lol. i mean, "duh"
btw, i'm currently watching Beethoven Virus.. and it rocks!!!
haha..

anyways, will update soon. loves<3

EOY is over!!!!

2009-10-21T17:49:00.001+08:00

HEY!!!!...
yes i'm finally back aft like wat? more than 2 months?..
well.. couldn't really help it.. i mean there was eoy rite?..
and its finally over.. i'm now taking back my papers and results...
well, lets just say that i think i did worst than mid-year..
yep.. and time really flies..
another few more weeks and i'm gonna be in sec 4!!!!
omg.. to think my sec 3 life is just over like that...
i can't believe it.. this is crazy..
and i'm taking 'o'levels next year.. woah..

it seems like the year just woosh past like that..
i think i've been too busy focusing on so many things
that i forgot how time is really flying..
well, i guess i'll just have to live with it...lol
lucky for the lower sec though.. got extra 2 weeks of hols..
while the sec 3s have to stay back for extra lessons..

rite.. i'm gonna watch funny videos and have a good laugh now...
slack while i can..
btw,

TO ALL SEC FOURS:
GOOD LUCK FOR 'O' LEVELS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SEPTEMBER 11

2009-09-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

Its SEPTEMBER 11 today...
a date the world will never forget..
my condolences to those who departed
for a better place up there 8 years ago...

anyways, i've been saving up..
cuz apparently, i have to pay for the trip by myself if i wanna go..
and i'll be using the money i've saved for years
which are meant for my studies in future...
heartbreaking...haiz..

yes, and i jus borrowed money frm my parents to get de concert tix..
check this out:

YES!!!! FINALLY!!!
VIENNA BOYS' CHOIR
i'm watching wiz yan you...
though the concert is november...
but well, at least i've got the ticket..
that makes me happy..lol

kaes..gtgn..

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!!!!!!! (belated)

2009-09-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED TEACHERS DAY!!!!!
to all teachers in the world!!!!

haha... sry.. i noe i'm lagging a little..
lols.. anyway, life sux recently..
my laptop crashed, mobile hang, and all memories stored
in de laptop are all gone.. including those frm primary sch and my MUSIC..
haiz...

anyways, i finally watch de dvd i bought in hongkong like, 2 yrs ago?
yea.. its called CONCERT FOR DIANA..
i tink its really cool... really..
de concert comprises of music and arts of diff genre...
and it was supposed to be a birthday present frm prince william and harry..
to their mother..
seriously.. Princess Diana is now my role model..

A love of music, a zest for life and a desire to reach out to others..
thats wat Princess Diana was like..

cool huh?... i know..XD

YES!!! my account is saved..

2009-08-30T12:18:00.002+08:00

hey ppl..
yes..finally my account is saved!!!!
i can use coloured fonts again!! yay!!...lol
i'm surprised an IT idiot like me managed to fix everything..
haha..

btw, 2morow there'll be teachers' day celebration..
and my class theme is BLACKBLING..
haha.. so we'll wear black wiz lotsa blings..lol

anyways, its gonna be a super busy day 2morow...
aft celebration in sch, i'll be visiting my primary sch..
which is all de way in de west, dan i'll be catching up wiz some primary sch frens..
then i'll have to rush back to de northeast to visit Dexus wiz some other dexus mates...
btw, dexus is de student care centre i used to attend way back when i was in primary sch..
haha....

rite.. i finally change my blog song..
its still JONAS..haha. pls listen to de whole song.. cuz its really nice..
i love it..:)

and ppl, watch dis video.. u'll be surprised.. that girl is really good.
i mean, really really good. MUST WATCH!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uz0GOlLoeBQ

HAPPY B'DAE MR TAN!!!!!

2009-08-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY B'DAE MR TAN!!!!

rite.. my com got prob again and its in weird font..
and i can't change it..
i mean like, wat do u expect frm an IT idiot like me?..
lols..

anyways, realise i haven't been posting..
cuz i've got no time..
and there is really nth much..
jus life as usual, boring like always..

rite.. gtgn..
nites ppl:)

HAPPY B'DAE S'PORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-09T13:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY B'DAE SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woohoo!!! happy national day to all s'poreans:)
yep.. rmb to dress in red and white 2day..lolXD
anyways, i'm definitely catching de NDP show on tv..
haha.. so lets join our hands and celebrate dis joyous occasion:)
hand in hand we shall let our love 4 de country soar...
lol... rmb THE TIME..
8:22 pm..we will all recite de pledge 2gether..
as one people, one nation, one s'pore:)

then we can all watch s'pore idol on channel 5..
haha..
ok..bye for nowXD

First of August..

2009-08-01T21:33:00.001+08:00

so.. time really flies huh?..
nth much happened really..
i jus tot i might post sth on de first of a new month..
sry.. think de font and size is kinda weird..
cuz i'm using another com..
and apparently, theres no tool box..somehow..

rite.. been pretty caught up wiz de National day songs wiz choir..
and (of course) de merciless no.of tests..
emo-ing.. u get it rite?..yea..life as usual..
been feeling rally low recently..
as can be seen in previous posts..
i looked thru my old post and tot i saw another person's post..
its jus so not wat i am now..
it was alot more cheerful and lively..

anyway, i tot i'd watch some movies to cheer myself up abit..
but ended up watching 9 episodes of JONAS on youtube..
i must admit..i feel lots better watching de show..
it kinda reminded me of wat i was like be4...
wat kinda feelings i usually had..
and i honestly feel alot better..serious..

JONAS RAWKS
.. and thank you:)lol

whats wrong?! somebody tell me...

2009-07-21T22:51:00.002+08:00

seriously...wats wrong?
i'm sry u guys have to read another emo post...
but then again, who will actually visit my blog and read de posts?
lol...
i noe i haven't been myself lately..
i jus get so frustrated and all..
its like there are so many probs lately and i can't get them off me...
really feel like screaming my lungs out...

other than those times when i'm hanging out wiz my frens,
i can't rmb de last time i was laughing or smiling away...
i laugh...sometimes..but they dun come frm within..
more like i'm using laughter to make myself happy, to mask any unhappiness...
but apparently it doesn't work..
right.. maybe it does work for a second or 2...
but it doesn't last longer than that..
i may even give ppl de wrong idea tat i'm pissed wiz them or sth..
but theres jus nth to be happy abt wateva that happens everyday..

i feel like i'm losing de fun and bubbly part of me...
in fact, i think i'm losing everything...
everything that i care abt and means sth to me...everything that i love..
things are getting serious...
and i dun like it...
life seriously sux...
and de last thing i need is somebody trying to A.P. me..
a smile can work wonders u noe...

CRUSH...

2009-07-15T21:50:00.003+08:00

dunno why.. but this song has been ringing in my head..
ahhh...
i can even unconciously start singing this song..
rite.. i noe its dumb..but its true..
zzzz....

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away....

updates+oral..

2009-07-15T21:29:00.002+08:00

hey.. so chinese oral was definitely screwed..
i think i did even worse compared to mid-year..
i can literally see my distinction flying away...
and its o'levels...
i'm so doomed.. seriously..
gg..

anyways, updates on the presentation at nanyang..
well, i tot it was pretty fun though we were also kinda screwed..
de sch is huge, and de ppl are nice..
yea.. pretty cool environment...
we had combined presentation which was de fun part...
our topic was sth related to peranakan culture...
yep.. so we teamed up wiz a Jing Yuan Sch frm shanghai and Maris Stella High..
our sch has de most no. of ppl and we were all girls so de guys were outnumbered..
lols..
anyways, we decided to convey our message thru songs..
there were 3 songs we chose and changed de lyrics to our content..
yea.. if i'm not wrong, we chose 翅膀，菊花台& 手牵手。
yep.. so i made quite a few new frens.. had some great laughs..
yep..it was pretty cool..

yea.. gtg study bio..
haiz.. sad life...

ORAL

2009-07-15T00:34:00.002+08:00

rite.. presentation thingy at nanyang was pretty cool..
actually it was very screwed but i guess it was kinda fun..
felt lyk a potato... heh
its late.. think i'll share de details another time..
i made new frens!!!! lol

O'LEVEL CHINESE ORAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gg...

first post in july...

2009-07-13T20:58:00.002+08:00

hey.. so its de third week of july..
many things have happened...
and its been pretty taxing trying to catch up wiz de syllabus and everything...
wiz some projects and tests along de way..
some of which can really drive me to suicide...
yep...
this week..lets see..
i've got ppt presentation 2morow at nanyang girls,
bio test 2morow which i'll probably take on wed or thur..
O'LEVEL chinese oral on wed...
and amath test on fri...
gg rite?... i noe..

best is i'm so unfamiliar wiz de test topics..
its like asking me to understand tamil...
wth... lol

haiz.. life rilly sux..
feel lyk i'm losing everything tat i want...
everything that i cherish...
and de stress and workload jus keeps piling up..
leaving me no time of my own..
emo-ing....

SIGHT, SOUND, SENSES AND SOUL..its not what we wanted

2009-07-01T11:50:00.003+08:00

so.. concert is over.. jus lyk tat..
abt an hour on stage and its over..
i'm not sure wat to say abt de concert...
de feeling is complicated...
de feeling of triumph somehow didn't flood me lyk i expected it too...

i didn't leave de stage thinking:"omg!! tat was it! we did it!it was amazing!"
instead i felt:"its over?...erm..ok..erm..wth"

it wasn't disastrous neither was it a terrible failure...
but we jus didn't show wat we cld do..
we were obviously not showing our true or full ability...
we cld have done better.. and we noe it..
our performance didn't reach mr toh's expectation...
neither did it reach de standard of our inner compass...

mr toh was upset.. he was gonna cry..
though he said he was proud of us cuz dis is de fruit of our labour...
but de fruit wasn't sweet..
which made us feel worse...
our first performance in esplanade and it wasn't perfect...
i'm really... i dunno...
he's right.. it is time for reflection and some soul-searching...

regardless, i wld also lyk to thank some ppl for their support..

thank you, mr toh for everything u've done for us... u've done so much..
sacrificed so much for us, love us... i really dunno wat to say..
really... thank you...u're really de perfect conductor...

thank you, mr tan for always motivating us, encouraging us and giving us inspirational talk...
and let de choir understand alot of things... we all agree tat u're a great teacher-in-charge..
and i dun tink theres anyone better...

thank you, comm for working together and supporting each other throughout de process...

thank you, seniors for coming back to sing wiz us..
esp. jenna and pamela...
though u guys have long graduated but u guys still take time off to come back for this concert..

anyways,for the audience....
i wld really lyk to thank all of u who came and support us...
thank u all so much...
i noe i spam quite alot of ppl abt concert..sry abt tat..
but i'm glad u guys came...
thank you thank you thank you so much for coming..
really appreciate it:)
many of u commented tat u love de last song...
UBI CARITAS...
yep.. tats de name..
it means when there is charity..
but de whole song is abt love cuz de phrase is...
ubi caritas et amor...
which means when there is charity and love..
i'm glad u guys love it.. i like it too...

for those of u who cried upon hearing dis song last nite, thank you...
cuz its suppose to tug at ur heart strings...
its our choir anthem or sth lyk tat...
once again, thank you all for ur support:)

CHOIR CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

SIGHT, SOUND, SENSES AND SOUL

yep... tats rite.. choir concert is TOMORROW...
can u believe it?.. its lyk.. a shock wave jus hit me or sth..
i mean, i've been preparing myself for this day...
but still, it seems too fast...
time rilly flies...

de thing is, we only got a month to prepare for this concert..
which is way way way too little time...
but there is no other choice...
but i'm rilly proud of choir for being able to reach a certain standard within this time limit...
haha...
though i'm kinda scared cuz i dun feel super duper secure lyk be4...
neither do i feel de emotions of de songs each time we prac...
its lyk.. we can get pass de song but i dun feel de goosebumps..
get wat i mean?
but anyways, we shall do our very best 2morow...
we shall not let de audience down, neither shld we let mr toh or mr tan and
our frens who'll be supporting us down...
most importantly, we can't let ourselves down...
and we WON'T!!!!!

the choir has been working hard for this...
really hard..
and 2morow is de day tat we show everyone wat we've got...
so lets jia you!!!!!

GO AHSCHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!

OBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M FINALLY HOME...

2009-06-27T22:58:00.005+08:00

heyhey... warning- this is gonna be a VERY LONG post

haha... tock seng, pls go to de end of de post, there are some THANK YOUs for u guys:)

yep.. i'm finally back frm OBS...

heh... was there without my phone for 5 days..lol

anyways, it was kinda cool...

i only tot so aft de activities actually...

during de tough process, i never rilly found it fun...

lol.. i'm gonna share my experience day by day so if u're interested, read on..

if not, nvm..haha

DAY 1- 22 june

meet up in sch wiz everyone in de morning..

wiz my heavy bag, dreading everything abt camp..

yea.. was put into grp 1..

which we later realised its called TOCK SENG...

there were 4 watches frm our sch..

tock seng, washington, sui sen and barker...

team members: me, eunice, charlene, annabella, queenie, audrey, qingying, liying, yuping, zhidan, christopher, dave, aaron, jasper, khai rui and elton...

16 of us in total..haha..

got Boo as our instructor...

we had a long long long long long introduction, got to know one another...

dan we went on wiz food rationing, lunch, packing etc...

yep.. we were given a 5 day supply of food for all of us and were supposed to rationed them out..

dan we had our very first activity: TRUST FALL

we were supposed to stand on a platform abt 1m above ground level and back face our frens...

our frens will be holding onto a mat and when we are ready we'll jus fall backwards and let our frens catch us... cool huh?..

we ALL had to do it one by one.. yea..

i reckon its called trust fall cuz we had to trust our frens to catch us when we fall..

it was kinda scary at first but when u fall, u'll find tat its quite ok..haha

and theres a certain "command" to it.. it goes sth lyk tat..

person falling:" tock seng are u ready"

frens:"tock seng pull, tock seng ready"

person falling:" (name) falling"

frens:" fall on"

and dan de person will fall..lol

yea...dan we had belay prac...

which was kinda cool...

dan came pitching tents, bathe and our first self-cook dinner..

we had rice... which were suppose to be a blessing...lol

and our first nite in a tent...

which led to a JOKE...

i woke up in de middle of de nite hearing pretty loud voices frm de guys tent..

dan i suddenly heard some guy saying.." hey.. 5.30 alr leh.. wake up.."

and i was thinking: what?! we were supposed to wake up at 5am... damn!

so i went:" hey guys guys.. wats de time now?"

reply:" 5.30" .... so i immediately woke everyone in my tent...

dan we later realised it was only 2.30am!!

we were lyk: WTH?! only 2.30?!

i reckon somebody read de time upside down..lol

DAY 2- 23 june

major events of de day: inverse tower, capsize prac and mini expedition

inverse tower was rilly funny.. haha...

everyone took turns to climb de tower and belay each other...

yar... so somehow i belayed jasper up de tower and it was VERY difficult cuz he climb VERY fast.... i was rilly struggling to pull de strings and everything...

but de funny part came when he was falling down de tower...

somehow, my assistant let go of de string and i didn't lock properly so de rope jus keep running through my hands.. and de friction was so painful i jus totally let go...

and de next thing i knew, jasper was on de ground.. in other words, i made him fall from de rope...

yea.. and i feel rilly rilly bad abt it... i mean it..

and i'm rilly rilly sorry... so pls stop harping on it..lol..

i dunno how to put it.. its lyk funny and at de same time i feel kinda guilty...

so yar..

but i guess i got my retribution as well..

i fell frm a certain height frm de rope also..

somehow... so i've got 2 bumps on my shin and a HUGE patch of bruise on my left thigh..

yar..

dan we had capsize prac... we were taught how to capsize and how to get back on de kayak...

yea.. somehow de basketballers capsized THRICE cuz when de first 2 finally got up de kayak.. de last person will capsize it...haha.. so they end up capsizing until they let de 3rd person go up first....haha... it was kinda funny seeing them capsize over and over again...haha

i partnered eunice and we pass de capsize thingy but definitely failed de kayaking part..lol..

it was SO embarassing... it was during our mini expedition to our camp site...

both of us jus couldn't padle together and we end up going in dif direction frm de rest all de time... de instructors helped us thrice but yet we cannot make it..

so in de end, we had to swop partners...

it was so embarassing!!!.. i end up partnering jasper and elton and eunice wiz khai rui...

it was crazy!!!! de 2 guys in my kayak kept speeding up until de whole kayak was shaking..

so i kept screaming.. can u imagine? i bet everyone was staring at me...but it was rilly scary...

i mean.. de way they padle.. so yea...

we took abt 2 hrs to reach our campsite.. and both eunice and i felt pretty bad 4 splitting de guys..yar...

and dan de joke of de day.. PRICKLY HEAT..

de guys decided to put prickly heat at their "uh um"...

yar... and it was so painful they all shouted and squirm in pain...lol..

tat scene was pretty funny...

one of them first said he felt nth and aft 3 sec, he shouted and squirmed even louder than de rest...lol

and de day soon ended...

DAY 3- 24 june

major and only event: SEA EXPEDITION- KAYAKING

it was actually quite fun.. both washington and tockseng combined and went 4 expedition together... so there were 4 leaders: dave(navigator), guan jie, annabella and another guy..

sry.. forgot his name...

so a map was thrown at us... technically, 2 maps and compass...

so me, dave and charlene shared de same kayak on tat day...

we had to make our way through de mangrove swamps, stopping at 4 portages..

and each time, we have to get off de kayak, pull de kayak up some slope and continue kayaking ..

it was very very exhausting....

out of de 4 portages, 2 were lyk mud pool or sth...

almost everyone sunk into de mud pool..lol

of course, there were funny and interesting moments...

lyk how eunice and elton kept crashing into mangrove trees...

and each time we hear: " oh GG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

first thing tat came to mind was : eunice and elton crash....again lol

and chris capsized, eunice drifted frm shore aft elton alighted and stuff...

yea..it was pretty cool...

so when we finally were out of de mangrove swamp into de open sea...

we cld see WHITESANDS!!!!!! and we were lyk: so near yet so far...

LOL... so we kayaked for abt 2okm i tink.. and finished in 7 hrs..yea

we soon reach campsite and had a PEE PARADE...

everyone jus pee in de sea together...haha

and de water arnd tat area became warm... u noe why.. haha

on tat somehow, everyone had de urge to shit...

so there were some funny things abt de shitting part...

yea...shall not mention them... ppl in tock seng shld noe...

haha....

and dan came incidents which drown half our mood...

first, we waited rilly long for our bags and realised they dropped into de sea...

so de obs ppl took out some of our stuff and dry-cleaned them for us...

prob is, they put them in garbage bags and somehow many of us lost some of our things...

lyk some of us lost some clothes...

i tink some guys totally dun have a single clean clothes....

yea... and our sleeping bags, poncho, tents and other stuff were wet...

so we didn't have anything to lay in our tents...

and dan one of our tents went missing...

yep.. totally MIA...

so in de end 6 guys had to squeeze into one tent...

and we borrowed poncho frm other grps..

but some of de guys ended up sleeping outside.. which was rilly quite sad...

yea.. and i rilly have to thank li ying & others 4 helping me at nite...

when i was shivering lyk mad and felt lyk de world was moving...

yea...

DAY 4- 25 june- treking to explore pulau ubin..

yea.. we were given a map to visit some places of interest and ultimately return to base camp...

it was tough lyk hell....

we trekked for over 10km for sure and our bags were so super heavy...lyk over 10kg or sth...

and there were still tents, food, cutlery, jerry cans and water to carry...

i admit i didn't do anything much cuz i had blisters and abrasion so i cldn't walk properly...

yea.. and i noe there were ppl who rilly slogged so yea.. sry..

so ot of de 7 places, we visited 4...

de bird's eye view, goddess of mercy, pulau ubin village and de german girl's shrine...

de bird's eye view was pretty cool... but de climbing was quite tough...

it was abt 65m tall and we cld see tampines and changi...lol

and dan we shouted at de top of de hill and cld hear echo...

it was so cool...

we went lyk:" GG!!!!!!!!!!" and dan we cld hear: gg...gg...gg..gg

and dan we went:" go home and bathe!!!!!" and we heard: go home and bathe....bathe...bathe

yea... cool huh? de view on top was rilly cool... heh..

yea de whole thing was rilly tough... we end up splitting tents to share de load...

plus most of us had injuries and we had to climb up and down hill on rocky roads and stuff...

we wldn't have made it if not 4 de motivation and encouragement we gave each other...

rilly common commands were:" keep left" " keep right" keep together" slow down" "catch up"
and "water break" lol...

of course, there were cold jokes and gossip to keep our minds off things...yea..

and we finall celebrated our victory when we reach base camp...

so we suffered lots of injuries but at least we were at base camp where there were proper
toilets....

so we pitched our tents for de last time and bathed lyk siao!!!!!! lols...

and we had celebration dinner which we decided to cook fried rice... yea.. quite nice..

haha.... some of us visited de medical centre cuz of abrasion and azheima and stuff...

we later went back to our tents and realised tat all our tents were wet and de guys tents were de

worst... there were lyk sand flies... IN de tent...

so we wanted to stay outside but got scolded instead and were told to go back to our tents...

ppl in my tent end up sharing a wet sleeping bag..... and we spam powder lyk mad...

and we finally finally slept...

DAY 5- 26 june - last day

woke up wiz a headache as usual...

last day of camp and everyone was naturally exceptionally excited...

haha.. it was packing aft packing, washing aft washing, drying aft drying...

and my legs were still damn itchy and abrasion was killing me...yea..

u get de idea...

and we formed a human chain so we can pass things faster..

which is also good so i dun have to walk too much... lol

and yes, i noe i cannot walk properly, i look retarded....

and thks to jasper and kang yu and gang, u noe wat.. yea...

VERY FUNNY hor....

yea.. our last activity was another version of trust fall...

this time, we fall forward and try to hit de bell..

yea.. it was quite ok.. though i didn't hit de bell but its ok... haha

so we had sharing session, got our phones and valuables back, our cert and grp photo...

i bought 2 outwad bound shirts... honestly, i feel quite proud wearing it...haha..

we gathered wiz other grps for and inspiring session wiz another instructor be4 we finally leave..

actually i felt kinda sad cuz when we go back to sch, it'll all be diff...

i'll miss those bonding times we had wiz one another, motivating, helping each other out...

here are some of TOCK SENG commonly used LINGO...haha

- GG!!!
- QQ!!!
- Hello, wo shi chris... qing liu yan...

haha....

INJURIES

- 2 bumps & bruises on my shin
- 1 HUGE bruise on my thigh
- shoulderache, backache, muscleache
- rashes, azheima
- abrasion
- blister
- ZERO mosquito/insect bite
- became BLACK!!!!!! zzzz
haha...

THOUGHTS & FEELINGS

was very negative abt camp @ first... for abt 2 days..
be4 i start to be abit more positive.. i tink cuz i got to noe more ppl...
de process was rilly tough and tots of giving up and going home will jus keep hovering in my head.... but it was aft de activities tat i found it quite cool...
its lyk thinking back, it was quite fun...
never tot i'll miss obs but i kinda miss camp now...
somehow i have de urge to walk or exercise abit more now.. lol

anyways, i wld lyk to thank EVERYONE for their encouragement, motivation and help

thank liying, eunice, audrey,qingying whose always there to help me, we pee and shit together..

thank queenie and zhidan for lending me stuff and helping

thank yu ping for her cold jokes which kept everyone moving forward

thank annabella and charlene for doing most of de cooking and alot of sai-kang

thank all de guys for their contribution esp. carrying most of de heavy stuff

thank chris and aaron for offering to carry tents and jerry cans frm me and eunice

thank dave for his navgation skills, which without, our grp can jus live in de swamp..haha

thank jasper, khai rui and elton for carrying alot of stuff despite their uh um injuries..

"thank" them also for their 'humorous jokes' and 'entertainment'

"thank" them also for ganging up wiz some washington guys and bully me..
(pls delete those unglam picts... post them and i'll kill you!!!) haha...
and yes thank instructors for their guidance and everything...
will miss those bonding times and i rilly rilly appreciate each and every member in tock seng...
hopefully we'll still be great frens aft camp:)

i went for OBS.... NO REGRETS...

OMG... JONAS NEW ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-15T23:37:00.002+08:00

heyhey...
so.. been pretty busy lately..
confession: barely started hols hw and projects...
lol...
think i'm gonna die...
plus, i'm SO DREADING OBS....

anyways, i'm posting cuz i jus realised that 2morow, 16 june,
is de official release of de new JONAS album, LINES,VINES AND TRYING TIMES...
OMG!!!!!!!
but its only available in de US right now...
wonder when it'll arrive in s'pore...
OMG... i'm so gonna get it!!!!
haha..

btw, if any of u guys is interested in attending AHSCHOIR concert, pls let me noe...
tks:)
haha.. tats all 4 now...
bye...

paranoid? or not?...

2009-06-03T23:52:00.002+08:00

so.. i dunno wats wrong wiz me..
getting all spaced out, lost and confused...
its lyk there are so many things in my head tat i got brain blockage or sth...
can't seem to think properly...
dunno why...
used to be so clear-minded..

my senses are telling me to beware...
lyk a "ward off" sign kinda thing...
or izt jus me being paranoid? i'm not very sure...
i noe i can sense it.. its pretty obvious...
but nobody notices it cuz u're not britney spears..
but dan again...
i noe i have dis weird paranoid sensitive thing in me..
is it de cause of all my confusions? i dunno..

DISCIPLINE I/C 2009/2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-31T14:30:00.003+08:00

heyhey...
omg... i made it to choir comm!!!!
DISCIPLINE I/C 2009/2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woots!!!!!!!!!
yeahman.. i'm over de moon!!!
oohlala.......
lol...
i dunno why i'm so happy when i'm gonna be under tremendous pressure very soon...
haha... my dream finally came true!!!!
i've been dreaming abt dis and wanting dis since sec 2...
lol.. doesn't sound very long huh?... but to me, it is!!!
i can't believe i'm in comm...
i mean lyk, i'm in choir comm?! are u serious?!
somebody SLAP me!!!!!! lol...
though i ran 4 treasurer and didn't get it...
but i'm still very happy cuz i still got a post in comm...
and i believe sj will do a great job:) haha...
i really really wanna thank choir 4 giving me de chance to serve de choir...
thank u all 4 trusting my ability and voting 4 me..
i'll do my very best and i will not let you down!!!!!
my love and passion 4 choir will keep growing!!!!!!!!!!
haha...
i seiously tot i screwed de speech and everything...
didn't think i cld make it to comm at first...
cuz there are so many others who had great speeches or are highly capable...
and when godwin came out to congratulate me, i tot " die alr...die alr.."
cuz i tot he was trying to be sarcastic or sth...
(sry.. no offence)
yea.. but it turned out pretty cool..
i was quite surprised wiz myself aft de whole thing....
when they were counting votes...
cuz i was taking it real easy... i tot i was gonna be really anxious 4 de results..
but i was pretty relaxed..
guess i figured tat i alr did wateva i cld do...
and it was all up to destiny....
lol... ok it sounds weird..
anyways,
congratulations to all who made it to comm!!!
we shall work hand in hand and jia you 4 choir!!!!!

I LOVE AHS CHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

YOZA!!!

yep.. finally.. MYE is over!!!!
and choir is starting soon... Yay!!!
rite... think i haven't been posting for nearly a month...
yea.. guess i was too caught up wiz mid-years...
though it wasn't exactly smooth-sailing, well at least its OVER!!!!!
i have been out shopping and having fun 4 de past 2 days...
yep.. rite aft de last paper..
though its pretty tiring, but i MUST have lotsa fun be4 sch starts on mon...
cuz i heard we'll be getting back our papers frm mon onwards...
yea.. so our happiness is kinda short-lived... sad..
so we must make de most out of it be4 et in hora arrives...
lol...

anyways, choir is starting next week and i'm REALLY pumped...
i mean lyk, we all miss choir rite?... who doesn't? lol..
but its gonna be pretty scary..
i mean lyk, wow! we're gonna handover soon...
can't believe its so fast..
i'm actually pretty scared abt de election and all...
so yea.. we'll see how it goes..
but ya noe, its pretty scary how time really flies..
i mean lyk, i cld still rmb being a sec 1... when i first tepped into high sch...
it was kinda weird..
and now, i'm lyk a senior, an upper sec student (whom i used to fear during sec 1)
lol.. isn't it scary?.. nearly half a year is gone ya noe..
means i'm only left wiz another half a year of sec 3 be4 i enter de year of o'levels...
its lyk.. OMG.. i can't believe it...
lol.. and i've probably graduated frm high sch in another blink of an eye..
haha...
anyways, gtgn...
nites:)

VIP came... to AHS

2009-04-22T23:04:00.002+08:00

heyhey...
so, under tremendous stress...
now that MYE is just a stone's throw away...
haiz...

anyways, Mr Teo Ser Luck came to AHS 2day..
yep.. and a few of us had dis dialogue session wiz him...
& i tot it was totally cool...
very interesting session...
i mean lyk, he was totally casual and friendly...
jus really cool.. nth lyk wat i expected..
it was far frm formal and everything.. i was quite surprised ya noe..
cuz i tot it was gonna be quite serious and solemn..
apparently, it was de direct opposite...
humourous, light-hearted and jus plain casual...
i almost cldn't believe he's a minister... seriously..
i tink we didn't even have to prepare in de fist place..lol
& i must say...
wateva he said and told us got me thinking...
and it was really motivating and inspiring...
really really cool...
my favourite word: PASSION
haha...

kaes..
gtgn... nitesXD

made up mind... wonder if i'll regret..

2009-04-21T00:01:00.002+08:00

I'M MISSING CHOIR ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what am i doing at home on a monday afternoon?..
feels kinda weird..
actually, i kinda felt it on saturday..
i woke up arnd 9am & was tinking..
" we shld be ending warm-ups soon..."
went to sch arnd 10+ & i was tinking..
" we shld be running through de songs by now.."
lol... i'd better get into de study mode soon..
cuz paper one is on NEXT TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways, i've decided to go 4 OBS...
i realised tat there was no way i cld cheat in de medical test..
cuz apparently, de doctor had all my medical history and records wiz her..
yep.. i jus hope i won't regret dis decision....
oh.. & a very big THANK YOU
to all of u who tried to help by sharing ur opinions..
& giving me ur support... tks so much XD

btw, 2morow is de 2.4km run..
yep.. think i'm gonna fail..lol
i'm so not looking forward to it...
& yes.. i've been wrecking my brain 4 qns!!!
i was suppose to think of 2 qns to ask Mr Teo, de MP...
on wed.. but i have to submit them by 2morow morning...
and guess what?..
i can't think of ANYTHING!!!!!
been researching on AYG & YOG... but still got nth..
haiz.. wonder why i'm even "selected"..
lol...

last piece of news..
ahs chinese orchestra got GOLD for syf!!!
yay!!! i'm so happy 4 them...
CONGRATS!!!! to all CO members!!!!!

kaes.. gtgn..
wish me luck for 2.4 & de qns thingy...
nites :)

in dilemma..

2009-04-18T23:00:00.003+08:00

OBS? CHOIR PRAC? OBS? CHOIR PRAC? OBS? CHOIR PRAC?

man... this is tough..
i'm down for OBS and not sure if i wanna go...
i mean lyk..
i've always tot OBS was cool & i noe its gd experience..
c'mon.. kayaking, flying fox, forest trail, pitching tents..etc..
scary... but probably once in a life time...

de thing is, choir concert is on 30th June..
and OBS happens to fall on de last week of choir be4 de concert..
wat a "great timing"...
yes.. i'm being really sarcastic..

i mean lyk...
as choir members, we noe wat last week of prac is lyk..
mad rush hour, getting really emo, crying lyk water is free,
depressed over frustrating "not up to standard" prac... etc..
overall, its called de tough times...
its also a once in a life time kinda thing rite?...
its aft all these stuff...
tat you'll feel an extreme sense of achievement aft a successful concert rite?
cuz you've gone through de worst times 4 this...
i'm jus really afraid i'm not gonna feel de same "YAY!"
as others aft de concert cuz i missed out on one of de most impt part of prac...

on the other hand, OBS looks gd on portfolios or testimonials..
or wateva u call those stuff...
& its def. great exposure...
but theres still choir..
not sure if i'll regret missing de last week of most crucial pracs...

i've cosulted mr toh & mr tan...
they both said tat if i wanna go, its alright...
by all means, go... they'll not hold me back..
de prob is, i dun even noe if i wanna go...
i've been weighing de pros and cons for WEEKS

HOW?... WAT SHLD I DO?
my medical checkup is 2morow....
AHHHHHHHHHH...................
shld i fail it on purpose?... or not?...

HEEEELLLP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-16T23:24:00.003+08:00

Phew!! wat a day...
yes!! we've once again done ourselves proud...
GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES!!!!! woots!! yeahman!!!!! oolala!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*screams* *screams* *screams*
GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha... man, i'm ecstatic...
did i spell correctly?... i dunno.. who cares?
haha....
dis is gonna be a super long post...
and i'm gonna start frm de very beginning of de day:)

so... yes, we got to skip de whole day of sch..(woots!!)
did our make-up & hair.... which was rather painful..
lols..
when mr toh came in @ arnd 11am, we felt comforted...
cuz he said we sounded good... he said we were ready...
yep... & there were seniors & juniors who pon sch 2 support us @ VCH...
& there were seniors who sms 2 wish us all de best & stuff...
yeah... was really touched by all tat...
ya noe, its lyk.. though they've graduated, they still came back..
and wish us all de best, support us all de way and stuff....
yeah...

actually, when we were @ VCH, i personally felt zero nervousness...
seriously.. though a little scared... but i wasn't nervous..
maybe it was mr toh or mr tan's words tat actually managed to calm me down...
i dunno... but mr toh's words did stay in my head...
stuff like.." focus on me"... & " enjoy de process of music making"
" de music is ours... let de music speak 4 itself"...
" look @ me...i'll take away all ur anxiety"
haha....
it was when we lined up outside de hall, waiting to go in tat de anxiety started to kick in...
it was really lyk... i dunno.. i suddenly feel butterflies in my stomach..
as if i couldn't breathe or sth... i swear i was trembling & shaking lyk mad...
but i tried really hard to stay calm...
yeah... i took in lotsa deep breath, "jia you-ing" ppl to keep calm...
haha...

i was actually quite happy wiz myself cuz i did everything mr toh said...
i was pretty surprised tat i felt minimal or maybe near zero anxiety on stage...
i jus smiled and focused...
all tat was on my mind was "give it ur best shot.. we're here to show wat we've got"
yeah... and i admit tat 2day was de best i've ever sung..
personally i mean... cuz i was really into de song...
and really trying to express de emotions and stuff...
some of de ppl frm first row said tat mr toh was @ de brink of tears during Ave Maria..
i wasn't wearing glasses so i can't really see his eyes tat clearly...
haha... i was so happy!!!! i personally cld feel goosebumps....
i tink some of them did too..lol

rite.. aft de performance & all...
mr toh said tat he was happy cuz he cld feel de emotions we were trying to express..
& he enjoyed conducting us...
but he said tat we were not technically there...
yeah.. we were sharp and off @ certain parts...
so he told us not to keep our hopes up...
we shld be happy wiz a gold...
but he was proud of us anyway...

ya noe, when he said that, half my spirit was killed...
i mean like.. we all noe tat we'll not be contented wiz a gold...
i noe tat de award isn't de most important... but still...
it'll mean our standard had dropped or sth rite?...
so i was having mixed feelings aft tat...
i was feeling happy tat we managed to deliver de emotions of de song..
but wasn't too happy aft wat mr toh said...so yeah..
i decided not to think abt de awards until de results are out...

yes... aft many hrs, its finally time 4 de most exciting part...
de RESULTS!!!!!
haha.. i managed to grab a seat..lol
anyways, we waited VERY VERY LONG 4 de results to be out..
yeah..& we all agree tat de M.C.'s english suck..
haha...
be4 us, we heard quite a no. of choirs getting golds..
& some gold wiz honours...
so i was thinking... i'm gonna be quite surprise if we get GWH...
esp. when there were alr quite a no. of golds & GWH being given out...
actually, i was kinda like.. " i think we're so dead..."
and it goes sth lyk dis...
"choir no.21..." & we're like... its coming!!!!
"choir no.22..." oh man... *panting like hell*
"choir no.23..." ok...*pants even more*
"choir no.24..." we're like at de edge of our seats...
"choir no.25, Anglican High School.... Gold..."
stupid M.C. paused for 3 sec... & we're like..
omg... are u serious?..we're really getting gold?..
i was like omg.. gold?.. oh no.. its fated..
& all those tots runnin through our minds within de 3 sec pause..
it was dead silence cuz none of us cheered... at all...
aft 3 sec, " With Honours!!!!!!" & then..
omg.. omg.. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
*screams* *screams* *screams*
"jumps" "jumps" "jumps"
all de way until choir no. 28...haha
i tink i was one of de first to cry...
i was like.. omg..omg..
*SCREEEEAAAMMMSSSSSSSS*
& de next thing i new.. i was crying...
LIKE HELL....
yeah.. & everyone was cursing de M.C. like mad... for de 3 sec..
haha

when we went out, we continued screaming, hugging, more crying...
and i cldn't stop crying.. i dunno why...lol
i was laughing, screaming, hugging and crying at de same time...
haha.. didn't noe how i managed to do tat...
i seriously lost control... my eyeliner smudged my whole eye..
& i tink i looked like a panda...lol.. but i cldn't stop!!!!!!
i was so overwhelmed wiz emotions..
& accor. to mr lee, mr toh cried...
he really did...& left some evidence on mr lee's sleeve..lol
there was some "drama" lyk zhengsheng being thrown into de fountain...
cornelius got "tau pok"...
& we formed a circle arnd mr toh and sang "ubi caritas"...
haha... it was so cool...
i really wished i cld relive tat moment...
it was so so cool....

so aft all tat craziness & crying, i felt comforted & really proud of choir..
but i felt sth i've never felt for a long time...
i felt BLESSED & VERY GRATEFUL..
becuz we can achieve wat we did 2day was not all de member's effort..
i mean, we all contributed alot...
but it wldn't have been possible without mr toh...
i'm really grateful tat we actually have mr toh as our conductor...
cuz it is becuz of him being a perfectionist...
him being a real pro..
and his "chiong all de way" attitude...
and his strong will to bring us to greater heights tat we are where we are...
i dunno why.. but aft calming down & stuff...
and replaying 2day's event.. it jus kinda struck me..
like.. :"wow.. yeah... we're really blessed wiz a great conductor"
so i really really wanna thank him 4 everything...
i'm sure de choir wld too...
so,
THANK YOU, MR TOH!!!!!!!!
WE LOVE YOU!!!!!

and also,
THANK YOU, MR TAN!!!!
yeah... for all de motivation and stuff...
for pulling us back when we're "floating somewhere"
& constantly reminding us of our purpose, passion & stuff..

yeah....
ok.. i think i'm very overwhelmed by emotions..
i'm so gonna miss choir...
i dun like de exam break...
its gonna feel so weird not going 4 prac 4 such a long time...
i think i'm not in de mood to study at all..
oh no.. i'm in deep shit.. MYE is coming...
SO GONNA MISS CHOIR....
anyways,

GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!
we've made it!!!!!!!!
"NO REGRETS!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

SYF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! de long awaited day has come!!!!

2009-04-15T23:29:00.003+08:00

heyhey...
yes, 2morow's de day..
we've been working so hard, falling sick, failing tests 4 this...
actually, i can't really believe tat SYF is lyk... 2morow...
i'm a bit lyk...
"oh yeah.. i noe its 2morow..rite..its 2morow... OMG!!!!!! ITS 2MOROW!!!!!!!!!!"
as in... i jus can't believe it...
its kinda lyk... "i'm graduating 2morow???"
yeah..sth lyk tat....

i must admit tat i'm pretty scared...
cuz we jus made ammendments yesterday, & there wasn't any prac 2day...
& 2morow's SYF....
yeah...but nevertheless, we shld jus do our best..
no, correction... we MUST do our VERY best...
cuz i noe tat when we do, we're really amazing!!!!!
btw, cornelieus & alvina both wrote some stuff 4 us...
its kinds lyk, a pres & vice-pres motivation thingy 4 de choir be4 SYF...
yeah.. it was so cool... i think it was so sweet & nice of them..haha XD

anyways, 2morow's our BIG day...
yep... we shall give it our all &
live by Mr Toh's motto: " NO REGRETS!!!!"...
yep.. tats it...
gtgn... wish us luck!!!!!!!!!!

Jonas Brothers: The 3-D concert Experience!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-12T00:26:00.002+08:00

hey hey...
ya noe, i jus felt lyk i must really post about this...
i noe its a little lag but i totally had no time to post yesterday...
so, yep..
i watched the jonas brothers movie on fri, 10 april wiz yanyou...
haha..
it was so cool!!!!!!!
i could really almost touch them!!!
its a pity i can't scream and sing out loud in de cinema..
cuz i really want to!!!
but i'll probably be chased out or sth...
lol...
i was literally screaming like mad in me...haha..
i tink very minimal sound came out... but yes, i was super excited...
i sang along throughout de movie... yes i did..
but really really really softly...
i dun tink anyone could hear me...
except yanyou.. she heard abit of sound comin frm me...
lol... but it was ok..cuz there was another girl behind me who was singing even louder..
haha...
but seriously, if i was allowed to jump arnd and sing my heart out..
i would have been even crazier...
but i tink i was alr very crazy...
u can confirm wiz yanyou abt tat...haha..
she was like, "ok.. stop smiling like tat.. u look retarded"..
haha... but aft de movie, she did admit tat de songs were nice..
see?... Jonas Brothers just ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i think i said "Nick is so cute!!!" quite alot of times..
haha... yanyou was like giving me de "weird look"..
anyways, i really LOVE de movie XD...
but if only i could scream and sing like crazy.... hmmm..
haha...

JONAS BROTHERS RULES THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hopefully they'll visit singapore someday...
or maybe even hold a concert..... YAY!!!

jonas movie pictXD

2009-04-10T00:28:00.003+08:00

COOL huh??...
i definitely think so...
i mean lyk.. 3D!!!!
i can probably touch Nick Jonas or sth...
and perhaps i'll be screaming my head off in de cinema...lol
i'm so gonna catch this... somehow..
haha...

anyways, NAPFA was kinda screwed..
chinese test was half-screwed...
e-lit test... well, i dun really noe wat i was doing half de time...
all i knew was, i was writing an essay and it has to be at least 3/4 of a page...
and no more than 2 pages...haha..
i tink e-math was fine...
i guess its de only test tat i feel relatively confident of...
full-dress was fine, nth fantastic...
in fact, i feel tat we lack emotions and feelings in all our songs...
nth lyk tuesday... hmm...
we still gotta keep on progressing...
de magic has yet to happen...
so lets STRIVE TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
choir, we can do it!!

ninth april..

2009-04-08T23:54:00.002+08:00

hey hey...
9th APRIL 2009...
is a BIG day...
to me, at least...

cuz theres:
- NAPFA test
- E-math test
- Chinese test
- E-lit test

and CHOIR FULL-DRESS REHEARSAL...
plus
the release of the JONAS BROTHERS 3-D CONCERT EXPERIENCE movie

WOOTS!!!!!!
so.. wonder if its a good day or not... hmm...
btw, JIA YOU CHOIR:)
we can do it!!!!
16th April 2009 is definitely a GOOD day...
for AHS CHOIR!!!!

LETS GO, GO, GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EMPTY.....

2009-03-30T21:20:00.003+08:00

(Empty)- Error

have u ever dreamt of sth rilly bad...
and it became a reality?...
i once dreamt tat all my frens & family would leave me one day...
for no apparent reason, they just kinda dump me...

this dream seems to be comin true...
i can see tat it is..
i dunno why but ppl doesn't seem to accept me...
i can surely say tat i can get along fine wiz anyone....
but de prob is tat they have issues wiz me...
i never understood why ppl can have no frens...
i used to tink its cuz they themselves didn't put in de effort to socialise...
but now i noe.. its not how much u try... its whether they want to accept u..
i used to feel tat i have loads of frens...
but now i dunno...
i've rilly tried to fit in...
it is so pschologically & emotionally demanding...
honestly, i'm alr pretty tired...
i dunno if i shld carry on wiz this...
u guys give me de impression tat
" u can join us if u want, if u can catch up wiz us,gd 4 u. if u leave, or can't catch up. or die, too bad 4 u.... we dun rilly care..."
i dunno if i shld pull myself away frm this...
on one hand, we still have to work together 4 quite a while in future....
which is why i've been trying to fit in... and i noe u guys are not nasty ppl...
but on de other hand, sometimes i rilly wish i can jus stop talking to u guys...
cuz i feel so left out, uncomfortable, an unhappy cuz i'm jus lyk a transparent vase...
u guys probably dun notice it or tink tat i'm over-reacting...
but u dun realise it and u dun understand, jus lyk how i never did....
until u're in de situation urself....
i dun despise or hate any of u...
but i jus feel left out and unimportant...
not tat i rilly want attention..
i jus dun wish tat i'll be labeled as "officially outcasted"
by one of my fav grp of frens...
if theres anything wrong wiz me, at least tell me or let me know...
cuz i dunno why i'm feeling this way...
even my closest fren...
i noe tat u love to hangout wiz them as much as i do...
and i noe tat u'll rather hangout wiz them than me...
theres nth wrong wiz it...
i jus feel lyk we're drifting apart..tats all...
sometimes when we all hangout together, i can't help but ask myself
"what am i doin here?" " am i being an extra?"
i dunno... i see u guys almost everyday....
and i dunno wat to do whenever i see u guys..
though i usually try to put on a smile and play arnd...
u guys never know how i feel...
and de most heartbreaking thing is tat u guys revolve arnd my passion...
tat passion is one of de things in my life tat propels me forward...
and i believe we all share de same passion... but i dunno wat went wrong...
u probably tink tat i'm thinking too much or maybe a bit hurt by this...
i'm sry.. but i'm jus sharing what i feel...

some of u may have noticed that i've been pretty dazed and spaced out recently...
tats cuz other than this, i feel de same 4 my family too...
i feel lyk... " ok, if u can catch wat we're talkin, great. if u can't, too bad and wateva..."
in conversations, i sometimes feel ignored and "extra"..
have u ever felt tat ppl give u de impression tat u're not needed here and wateva...?
well, i feel de same....

i hate all these feelings... its uncomfortable and can rilly spoil my day..
i dun speak of all these cuz none of u wld have understood...
lyk i said, u will only know if u have been in my position be4...
history is really repeating itself...
de experience in P6 was so "memorable", i totally transformed into another person...
in sec one, de situation in P6 repeated but of a diff form...
in sec 2, i totally broke down...
currently in sec 3, wonder if it wld be another record...
all these revolve arnd de same theme-friendship..
i really wonder if this time round, de prob still lies wiz me...
perhaps... i must be quite a sucky person..
i'm really sry if this have offended u in any way....
i dun mean it.. in fact, i rilly appreciate all of u...
or i wldn't have cared....
i tink its pretty obvious who i've been referring to...
but pls dun make wild guesses...
i hope this will not harm our friendship...
its only a way 4 me to let all my feelings out...
as u can see, this affects me pretty badly...
cuz loneliness is one of my greatest fears....

stress...

2009-03-24T22:58:00.002+08:00

hey...
realise de march hol is over?...
and i didn't post anything during de hols...
tats cuz i was too busy...

there were stuff lyk choir games, class bbq...etc..
those were really cool...
and as much as i wished to post sth, i couldn't..
other than those activities, i was spending my time doing hw..
sad huh?.. dunno why but my class seemed 2 have de most hw...
haiz...

let me do a quick summary...
choir games:
had lotsa fun, was finally in de same grp as sister MJ...
along wiz junyao, ping hao,terence and small Kristin (sry..dunno how to spell)
it was sth lyk last year's amazing race...
but this time its not just within tampines...
theres lyk plaza sing., vivo city, esplanade, ehub, SCH, suntec etc...
it was pretty cool... heard tat my grp came in second:)

class bbq:
haha.. was de earliest to reach...
along wiz yijing, ivy, ivy's mum and ivan (ivy's bro)
it was nice actually... we hung out at de playground, ate alot, played wiz shiro and stuff...
(btw, shiro is jia en's dog) lol...
really want to thank ivy and her family...
i mean lyk, she organised everything though i was supposed to be in charge...
(felt rilly bad abt tat)
and her mum sponsered most of our food and bbq-ed EVERYTHING 4 us..
so we jus ate... lol...

anyways, i had my first MCDONALD'S DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER during de hols..
and guess wat?.... i'm addicted.. totally in love wiz it...
haha... i heard tat it was nice so i deceided to try...
and i unexpectedly found one of my fav food....
haha....

btw, i bought my third issue of teenage mag...
why third? cuz there were only 2 issues wiz jonas brothers on de front page
and 1 wiz a huge jonas poster...haha
haven't finish reading though... only read de jonas part so far...
haha....

kaes, gtgn...
theres choir audition 2morow...
feeling kinda scared....
haiz.. bb & nites XD
(JONAS ROX MY LIFE!!!!!)

thanksXD

2009-03-07T22:47:00.004+08:00

hey hey...
so, as predicted...
i didn't have de time to post 4 de past 2 days..
haha...
firstly, i wld like to THANK EVERYONE:)
4 an enjoyable and wonderful b'dae...
thank you all 4 ur pressies, cards, best wishes, b'dae song, meals etc...
u guys really made my day..
haha.. i was really happy and super "high"...
once again... to ALL of u...
from the bottom of my heart,

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

secondly, of course i wld LURVE to share abt de Jason Mraz concert....
it was soooooooooo sooooooooooooo cool....
seriously...
it was fantastic...
i was REALLY REALLY IMPRESSED...
i was actually very glad that de seats we had were pretty good..
as in, its in de middle facing the stage and i felt quite close to de stage..
haha...
anyways, Jason Mraz was so cool...
frm de live concert, i came to 2 conclusions..
#1. he has really good vocals ( lurve his voice)
#2. he's officially my idol and I <3>
he can sing all kinds of genres...
like, pop, sentimental, rock, choral... etc.
yes. CHORAL...
and i bet he qualify 4 both BASS & SOPRANO....
he can reach real low and super high...
i'm serious....
PLUS... he can imitate the sound of the SAXOPHONE!!!!
yes. almost any note...
and his gutar skills are... IMPECCABLE
cool huh?
which is why i <3>i think i'm so lucky to have those tickets...
i was screaming my lungs out throughout de concert...
haha...

i was thinking...
imagine if it was JONAS BROTHERS...
i think i wld have lost my voice be4 de first half...
lol.. i really hope they'll come to s'pore someday...
and of course, hopefully i can get those tix again...
haha... i'm still hoping and wishing upon a star..
haha...
kaes..gtgn..
anyways i really had one of de best b'daes of my life..
tks to all my dear frens..
and of course, Jason Mraz....

yeahman...

just one more day... XD happy b'dae!!!!

2009-03-04T23:20:00.004+08:00

HAPPY B'DAE DANICA!!!!!!!!!! (ME)
HAPPY B'DAE MARTIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY B'DAE AL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha.. tot i wldn't have time to wish these ppl happy b'dae 2morow...
so yep... all of us are de FIFTH MARCH BABIES...

so... jus celebrated my b'dae @ home..
jus a simple celebration but was kinda cool..
ya noe, jus de family kinda thing... haha

well, actually its one more day to my special day..
but i'm gonna attend JASON MRAZ concert 2morow wiz sista mj..
haha... cool huh?
i'm so excited... YAY!!!!!!!!!
wonder if JONAS BROTHERS wld ever come...
haha... i think i might faint...lol:)

i told my mum i can go without b'dae and christmas presents for three yrs...
if they ever come and if their ticket cost a bomb...
haha....
anyways, i'll ALWAYS be waiting 4 them...
ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i hope u see this, JoBros..)
lol...
isn't it so cool to attend a concert on ur b'dae?...
i mean lyk...
JASON MRAZ CONCERT ON MY B'DAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.. how more cool can these things get?... XD
lol...
gtgn...
wishing ALL 5th March babies(like me) a happy b'dae:)

yeahman...

Not a bad day..

2009-02-19T22:34:00.003+08:00

hey...
so, wushu wasn't so bad afterall..
in fact, it was kinda cool....
not sure why but de coach seemed to be on cloud nine 2day...
he was really nice today...
i mean seriously, VERY nice...

lets see:
he gave us water break...
he praised us...
he released us earlier...
he didn't even reprimand us AT ALL...
practice wasn't as strenious....

wonder what has gotten into him...
maybe he saw us practicing seriously in de morning...
or maybe somebody apologised....
hmm...
anyways, its gonna be so cool if every lesson was like this..
haha...

well...
theres choir 2morow...
gtg prac now...

JIA YOU!!!!!!!

HAPPY B'DAE MUM & GUANJIE

2009-02-18T23:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY B'DAE MUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY B'DAE GUAN JIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha....
its no wonder why i never forget GJ's b'dae..
lol...

went out for family dinner jus now....
and guess who i saw?
Mr TAY....
yes, D&T teacher, Mr Tay...
haha... he was also having dinner wiz his family...i tink..
he was jus at the next table but he didn't see me..
lol...

anyway, got pretty stressed up over A-math today...
seriously, i suck at dis subject...
its lyk i need this subject quite badly, so i can't give up...
but its quite a struggle 4 me...
i dunno.. i'm jus not a math person...

haiz... theres wushu 2morow...
wonder how my class is gonna survive...
and wonder how I'M gonna survive another lesson....
we practically got lectured and reprimanded every lesson...
but if i have to choose between 2.4 km run or wushu...
well, i dunno... they both seem equally horrifying...
i guess i'm no sporty gal...
in fact, far frm it...

well, gtgn...
always hoping 4 a better 2morow...
gdnite & sweet dreams:)

reminded of good memories

2009-02-16T21:00:00.005+08:00

hey...
so i just watched de choir concert video...

QUISPIAM NOVUS 2008: THE START OF SOMETHING NEW

it was definitely a memorable one...
i'm not trying to be emo..
but as i watched the video, i was really reminded of those good times...
how our hard work was greatly rewarded...
how we had so much fun though the pressure backstage was so huge...
how we overome those sore throats and flu etc.during rehearsal...
and many other stuff....

those "old" songs which we used to drill and tear over...
that we got so sick of it that we never want to sing them again...
i suddenly think that they're so cool...
and i miss them so much... i really have the urge to sing them again...

somebody once asked me,"why your choir so cool one?"
well, becuz "we are Anglican High Choir... this is who we are"
yes..

I LOVE AHS CHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cousin kester is back...

2009-02-15T14:49:00.002+08:00

hey....
i jus realised i forgot to say
tat i changed my blogskin in yesterday's post....
lol...
tag and comment abt the skin kaes?
haha

anyway, my cousin is returning frm New Zealand tonite...
YAY!!!!!
lol... haven't seen him for quite a while...
but it was kinda cool for him...
i mean lyk he got to celebrate new year in Auckland...
cool huh?
but sadly, he don't get any red packets dis year...
hmm.... wonder if he has changed...
i mean in appearance....
i doubt he will grow fat though...
haha...

its kinda sad i can't meet him at the airport...
cuz my mum is celebrating her b'dae
at my paternal grandma's place tonite...
but i tink i'll get to see him soon....
btw, i heard tat he may be going to Australia dis year..
hmm.. wonder why his company keeps sending him overseas...
lol...

my other cousin is now in U.S.
so cool rite?
i dunno when she's gonna be back...
haha...
i wanna go overseas too!!!!!
lol....

anyways, i'm having quite a bit of fun wiz my new phone....
haha..
yeahman..
gtgn.. bye:)

HAPPY VALENTINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-14T23:43:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha.. tats rite..
its de day to spend time wiz ur loved ones...
YAY!!!!!!!!!!
btw, i got my dream phone today!!!!
at last...haha
but de sad thing is, i have to trade in my old phone
haiz... i broke up wiz my old phone on 14 feb 2009,
valentine's day... sad...
these are de photos i took be4 we go our separate ways..

ahhhhh........
my beloved Z610i...
i remembered wanting this phone so badly 2 yrs ago....
lol... and now its being replaced...
oh no...
but i lyk de new one too..
its de very popular" W595"....
haha...

btw, its really one of the few times when i feel such
tremendous stress frm choir...
i mean, i still love choir...
which is why i care and will get stressed up over it...
i really wanna get into syf so badly..
haiz... gotta try harder...

To all choir members:

A HUGE JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and thank you my frens,seniors,juniors...
for trying to cheer me up.... it was really nice of all of you
and thanks for all of ur wonderful valentine gifts....
i really appreciate them....

THANK YOU ALL FOR EVERYTHING.....

and I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

ONE MORE DAY....

2009-02-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

ONE MORE DAY....

yes... tats right..
SYF audition is 2morow...
omg... i'm so nervous....
wish me luck:)

"OMG Danica.... you better get in!!!!!!"...

"this is the last chance to get it right...
its NOW OR NEVER!!"

I'm Back Again..............

2009-02-04T21:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

hey... i'm so sorry i didn't post 4 more than a month...
i've been kinda busy wiz work and stuff...
but tks 4 visiting anyway...
oh.. and rilly appreciated de tags:)..
be4 u read on,
i'll lyk to warn ppl who (hates it when others share their personal feelings)
to skip dis post...
it isn't exactly very emo..
but i dunno how much u can endure....lol

so.. its a new year and i'm in sec 3 now..
kinda miss being a sec 2...
in fact, i still can't believe i'm a sec 3..
lol...

anyway, dis week is barely over and i already think its terrible..
wiz a capital "T"....
let's see...
i flunk my A-math test yesterday..
and i dun think my chinese test is going to be any better..
and audition is in 2 days time!!!!!!

i've been rather dull and gloomy de past few days...
cuz of de syf audition dis fri...
i tried jokin' arnd frens and stuff...
but its not lyk de trouble is gone aft some laughter..
i'm really scared.... really really scared...
i'm really afraid i won't get in...
cuz its my last syf...
actually, if i get in...
it'll be my FIRST AND LAST syf...
which makes it even more pressurising...
lyk many other ppl, i sing better when singing wiz someone else...
so i'm not de solo kinda person...
and i'm really scared tat i'll screw up at de last min...
and stuff lyk tat...
omg... i wanna get into syf so badly....
i'll be so devastated if i don't...
yet i'm so afraid..
its de first time i'm not really lookin' 4ward to choir prac..
its also one of those few times when i dun have de
"lets get it over and done wiz" kinda attitude...
this is jus so important to me as it is to many others..
*sighs*

To dis special person:
i noe you and i both are experiencing a terrible week..
and its not tat i dun wanna say anything..,
but its jus not me to explain and share my troubles in great detail..
and i wouldn't know how to explain anyway...
so sorry...

kaes... gtgn..
hope u guys'll enjoy de rest of de week....
though i dun think i'm gonna enjoy much...
bye...

TWILIGHT.....

2008-12-18T17:24:00.000+08:00

hey...
i've watched TWILIGHT!!!.... twice...
first at AMK Hub on sunday, 14 december...
watched wiz Sean...
then at E-Hub wiz some Singerellas the next day..
haha... cool rite?
and guess wat?..
i'm watchin' it again dis comin' saturday...
wiz michelle and gabrielle....
haha...

well, i'm not really a twilight fan...
its jus tat i promised so many ppl to watch twilight wiz them...
haha...
i dun really mind....

de movie isn't VERY impressive...
but its good enough...
i love de parts wiz de special effects...
its pretty cool....
i must say tat de movie kinda made me more interested in twilight...
seriously....
i wasn't really interested in twilight at first...
lyk..i dun really care much abt it....
but now i'm kinda lyk.. abit.. of a fan...

oh.. and i did some research on de Quileute tribe and stuff...
NOT becuz i'm crazy over twilght...
but becuz i tink its rather interesting...
haha...

rite.. theres choir 2morow...
its sec one registration...
i'm so lookin' 4ward!!!!!!!
yeahman....

busy busy busy....

2008-12-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

alrite..
quite a lot has happened during de past few days...
lets start off wiz..

last friday, 5 december.

went out wiz sean(cousin) and sister mj..
haha...it was de first time sean and manjing meet each other..
well, de outing was pretty interesting...
esp. when sean and mj can't stop bickering...
lol.. it was pretty hilarious how they get into each other's neck..

last saturday, 6 december

went out 4 lunch wiz choir peeps aft prac...
and met up wiz sean again..
jojo tot he was a poet cuz he was writing some stuff...
haha.. but he's actually writing a song...lol
oh.. then sean, mj and I went 4 a movie...
we watched BOLT...
i tot de movie was rilly cool...
de characters were SUPER CUTE!!!!!...lol
oh.. had dinner at sean's place..
his grandma's food was SUPERB...
haha

last sunday, 7 december

went to de airport 2day...
my cousin left for new zealand tat night...
tats rite...
though its 4 his job... i still tot it was pretty cool..
ya noe.. to be able to experience life overseas...
he'll only be back next year feb...
yep.. so he'll be celebrating CHRISTMAS and NEW YEAR in nz..
cool huh?...

monday, 8 december

theres no choir prac 2day...
so i intended to study de whole day..
until sean bugged me to meet him at de library..
and we ended up walkin arnd de mall 4 a few hours...
well, at least i read abt 20 over pages of my chinese storybk..

thursday, 11 december.

performance day...
worst day of my life...
everything went quite alrite during rehearsals...
at least tat was wat we tot...
until de moment we stepped onto stage...
we SUCKED....
no.. we SUCKED BADLY...
we've let mr toh down...
he was disappointed...
he said he was.... we could tell...
we all felt terrible...
i dun feel lyk describing it in detail...
cuz it consists of personal feelings..
in fact, alot of personal stuff....

friday, 12 december.( yesterday)

got bugged by sean AGAIN...
he bugs me at least ten times a day...
yes.. everyday..
reflected a lot yesterday and 2day...

2day, 13 december.

choir 2day...
we did white horses..
mr toh came and talked to us...
a long and meaningful talk...
he teared...
so did some of us....
wats important now...
is tat we must strive harder...
for the choir...
btw, went to eighteen chef wiz some singerellas 2day..
it was so cool...
we got our names and "AHS CHOIR LOVE MR TOH"
on de wall... haha...
dan some of us went to de library...
and dan went to mac just to sit arnd and talk...
(p.s. met poh zun at pasir ris 2day... so cool..)

anyway, its been quite a busy week...
and choir will only resume on 29 dec..
i'm so lookin' 4ward..
gonna watch twilight wiz sean 2morow..
yeahman...

DECEMBER!!!!!!!!!!.... and no carolling?

2008-12-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

Its December!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
christmas is drawing near!!! YAY!!!

HAPPY B'DAE SHI JIA!!!!!

HAPPY B'DAE BRENDA!!!!!

haha...

first day of december... how cool is tat?!...lol
well, there was choir prac 2day... as usual..
its pretty cool actually....
choir is practically de only thing to look 4ward to during de hols...
besides christmas...of course..
haha....
btw, theres a piece of bad news..
a really terrible news..
due to economic crisis....
our CAROLLING GIGS ARE ALL CANCELLED....
which means no carolling for christmas 2008...
sad... i was really lookin' 4ward to carollin'...

yep... choir is gettin' new costumes!!!!!
its a blue dress wiz a silver scarf which will go round de waist...
i tink its really pretty...
i heard tat we're gonna wear our old costume 4 de 11 dec performance...
so its probably gonna be de last time we're gonna wear de old costume..
hmm... i'm not sure if its a gd thing or not...
lol...

oh... GOOD NEWS!!!!
i heard tat de new jonas brothers book is available in kinokuniya!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHH.....
i'm not sure if its true... hopefully it is...
haha... but i'm still so excited...
yeahman...

btw, i saw QingKang in sch 2day...
in his LONG PANTS....
haha...
it actually feels kinda weird...
when u suddenly see ur frens in long pants...
i can't believe ALL de guys in my level are wearing long pants next year...
haha... they'll look so TALL...

kaes.. gtgn..
i've got tuition 2morow...
keep tagging!!

OMG!!!!!!! she's AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-20T18:25:00.000+08:00

hey peeps...
you guys have to watch this...
its a MUST....
its de first time i post some music stuff tat has nth to do wiz jonas...
seriously....
i found this video on youtube...
and this girl is jus so cool...
she's AMAZING!!!!!!!!
this is a video of her singing I'M YOURS by jason mraz...
and you just have to go to youtube and watch her other videos...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNmU9Lh69Wk

pls... jus click on the link...
she's really as good as a professional singer...
watch and tell me wat u guys tink in my tagboard kaes?
promise me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!